My love is like a red red rose...

2007-05-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

SCREWED.

I've moved..

ask me for my link if u want

bye

2007-05-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

Blades of Glory is a good catch! go watch..

was laughing away so hard

..the night's dark for me

..it's dark for everyone, moron..

n I cut my hair! I look like a....like a..........shaggy dawg..Emo cut a straight fringe! I so wanna see! hehe..

2007-05-10T21:11:00.000-07:00

BRILLIANT FAMILY I HAVE! WOW!

my mom cooks dinner for everyone in the family except ME

shouts at ME when I buy her a present

sides with my brother when he gets my laptop infected with FIVE THOUSAND THREE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY THREE ITEMS..

......................

not his fault he says.."COS I ONLY VISITED TAT WEBBIE ONCE"

yes I so I got my own laptop into tis mess eh..

MY BROTHER..tat's wad my parents only cared about..never me

the brother who was so close to me..completely morphed into a monster when he hit sec 3..I really wonder wad happened to him..wonder wad happened to his temper

when he shouted at me just now..........................the hurt I felt was really...............

='(

why is life such a mess

wad happened to tis?

=(((((((((((((((((( I love my bro so much..why lidat?????

it's so hard to be human sometimes..
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2007-05-10T14:16:00.000-07:00

-_- just kena tagged by Wanjun..

so here goes nothing..

"Tagged! This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly.

In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.."

1. I like peace n quiet..I only like to hear a few ppl talk..meaning few close frens n my bf..I tink I must be very antisocial..though many ppl tell me I look otherwise..I get very annoyed when ppl who are not my close frens talk to me on msn..I hate ppl asking me wad am I doing..wad am I studying..small talk lidat..I just get v pissed off..I dun like to receive smses from "hi-bye" frens..I hate meaningless small talk..n no I dun mean any of u dun tink too much!

PEACE&QUIET! I can sit at home by myself all day with a book n still be happy..

2. er.........all I ever wanted in life was..to have a nice family of my own..to make up for my own less than perfect home now..kua kua..shall wait n see

3. I am..very easily touched -_- I can cry up an entire box of tissue just reading a romance novel..cry in theatres..watching NKF show has me in tears..ok I know tis just made me sound like an idiot..I feel sad seeing animals in pain..I feel upset when I see handicapped/less fortunate ppl..even sweet stuff like watching romantic moments moves me..ok u all can duh me all u want right now.. =/ I realise I'm entirely too emotional n I feel too deeply but oh well..serious la..I feel a lot for everything..even my pets..are not just pets..@@ they are my frens!

WAD TO DO? siao one ma..

4. I feel very vulnerable actually..like 80% of the time..but I hate to show weakness..very often..although I am dying to ask someone a question..I will just keep it inside becos I dowan ppl to know tat I am bothered by it..cos I dun like others to know how much they mean to me cos I'm afraid of getting hurt..I dun even like to ask anyone "WHERE ARE U" Wanjun tells me I'm mad all the time becos of tis..hehe =PpP even if I'm very upset I can still rearrange my face to show a very calm expression as if everything's groovy..until everything snowballs into a bigger problem..eeeeek

sounds stupid right -_-" I tink my bf experienced tis many times b4..oops! sorreh Mr Koh

5. I used to be afraid tat I was gonna be single forever..AHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA..

sorry la..I used to be sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ugly..luckily got improvement la@@

6. I have a weakness for beautiful smiles (:

right now only one gorgeous smile works for me XD

n I ar..tag............

Shu Xian =P
Shalyn
Jun Liang whaha..
Lee Ling
L.W.L.F though u haven't given me ur link u ***bandit
n I really can't tink of the last..sorrehhhhhhhhh

2007-05-09T13:57:00.000-07:00

was looking at pictures..n was overcome by a wave of emo-ness again! wah sometimes I feel like smacking myself!

hehe HELLO FRENS..I love u all XD

I miss poly days! ahhhhh

<3<3<3

sam where are u!

2007-05-07T00:37:00.000-07:00

helluva rollercoaster week tat has left me feeling like a wrung sponge..

work is..SUPER SUPER TIRING..no matter how much I slp..I feel exhausted..I feel tat I have no more life! work..slp..work..slp..I dun have time to do anything else! aiyeee.. =(

Spiderman 3 on Friday! so exciting..I loved loved loved loved the show..waited for it for so long lei! finally caught it..thank YOU for catching it with me though I tink u were tired n u dun really seem to enjoy such shows.

watched soccer on Sat! I love watching soccer..ahhhhh

n Sunday..was spent walking around Causeway Point..

I needa grab some stuff soon!

- wallet..mine spoiled! n I've been stuffing money randomly all over my bag..bad..
- bag..my bags also seem to be...........dying..
- perfume..need a new scent!
- mp3..my creative zen seems to be kinda cranky already..n I can't live without my mp3! dead meat..
- laptop..my lappie is................I'm SUPER SAD..been using it for 3 years already =(

HOW HOW HOW HOW??? I tink 6 months worth of pay also cannot get me wad I want la..OH NO..

but ultimately...................I dun need much also la...........I just need.........................................

*you

2007-05-03T03:26:00.000-07:00

ok la. I may not be freaking damn hot like Girl A or Girl B or god knows how many others BUT STILL..

tat made me really feel......................shattered..tis kinda of screwed up feeling..which I dun tink I've ever felt b4..

one minute I behave normally the other minute I'm not..I tink I'm fine..den the next moment my mood just sinks..

zz..

wads tis..emotional rollercoaster

humans shouldn't have been made to feel..

just when I thought I wasn't alone..I realised..I'm more alone than ever before

2007-05-02T01:29:00.000-07:00

the pain & the anguish

the feeling of utter devastation

i'm sure I won't be forgetting tis feeling anytime soon

sometimes.................the mind knows wad to do but the heart tells u another thing -_-

humans...pfft..

if only..
just let it be..
even for a sweet fleeting second..
just let me remember the reason why..

PLEASE?

make me believe again..tell me it's worthwhile

2007-05-01T23:19:00.000-07:00

haven't blogged for ages! dunno wad I've been doing too..

mom wants me to just study wherever I can n just be done with it..my grandma says not to go NIE..cos she used to be a teacher b4 she retired n she says tat kids nowadays are a nightmare n their parents are even bigger nightmares..ooooh..

starting work tmr =((((((((( I am very sad about it..I always fall aslp at work! dunno y..I guess I must really find smth tat I like to do..such as..working with lil kids!!! seems like my biological clock is ticking -_-

Spiderman 3 is out!!! I am SO EXCITED!

went Sentosa yesterday becos cos of sheer randomness by dear bf..had a good few hours of tanning..now we're burnt to a crisp..him n his BANANA BOAT suntan oil..the sun was really at its hottest yesterday..we were BAKING away la..we look like prawns..my shoulders hurt! n my scalp is kinda painful ahhhhhhh..but it's fun! ooooh I love the sea so much..but..side effect of Sentosa..SORE EYES! my left eye is damn painful today..

metup with WJ n Emo in town after tat while bf went home to erm..recover/recuperate from dehydration he claims..HAHA..so long since I last saw Emo! she looked exceptionally pretty yesterday =D see dun say I nv compliment u ar..we had dinner at the ramen place at Far East..forgot the name..SO NICE LA..omg..I wanna go back there! so long since I last stepped into town..wheeeeeee..all of us bought smth each..got myself a top n a dress..yayness..HAPPY!

I look like crap!!! n he's so red..whahaha..when WJ first saw the pic she said tat he prolly spends a lot of time on his hair..n she's right! =PpP awwwwwwwww Jiye..

2007-04-25T14:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes..ppl really do things without any consideration to ur feelings..not tat I'm saying u did it intentionally..but u did it without tinking how I would feel..

n it really sucks..becos wadever I do I tink I put others b4 myself

I guess it just shows how much u really mean to someone hur

I'm sick n tired of repeating myself n feeling like a fool..k if u dun care I won't care either we can all just screw it n be on our merry way

I'm not gonna bluff myself n make excuses for u again n again..

if u tink tis post is directed at u..it probably is

if u find urself having niggling doubts whether it's meant for u den u probably have done smth which I dun like too

go do some self reflection

wadever.

screw it

Fel who hur? haha.

2007-04-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

Spiderman! can't wait! MUST WATCH IN THEATRES! to someone =D if u're reading tis..u know wad to do ok! HEE..

job hunting is so tired..I'm totally drained..haven't touched dotA for days..

life's has been about making choices n more choices these days..stressed! part time or full time? should I join NIE? luckily everyone has been very patient with me n answering my endless rounds of questions.. (: n many thanks to the bf who suffers when I'm stressed whaha..always gives me advice =PpP but den again..tat's wad a bf is for isn't it? HEHE..

been a full time mama rabbit these few days..my baby is sooooooo cute! I play with it for at least 3 hours a day..whahaha..wah I love it so much lorh..everyday I come home with smth for it..kua kua..monday - food..tuesday - litter..wednesday - brush..WALAO!!!

got strange looking rashes on my right hand..looks like a welt..zzz..happened like a week ago when I was just walking around town..tot it was just a bit itchy..n it became like..a belt of angry looking rashes..I dun feel anything..but..it's just awful to look at..quick heal!

n Sam..I tink the hammies are..reaching maturity -_- if u get my drift..I was damn dismayed..zzzz!

time to slp..interview again tmr! wish me luck k..had a few job offers..but I dun tink they're v attractive!

2007-04-14T14:11:00.000-07:00

2:14 PM

motherload of pictures!

meet my new baby! (: I heart it lots HEE..

tiger cub in disguise?

bunnie dreams!

eeeek so cute!

oops..my mom's a cheeseburger..whahaha..

whuh??? blur face..

camwhoring..tsk tsk..

looks like a dog ar?

relakkk one korner..

cutie westie at Vivo! but it looks terrified..tat's cos WJ was terrorising it..HAHA! cos she was "dressed like a flower" quote Mr Koh..

bigass calculater for ppl who can't count! like.........US..now..who's tat girl??? BIG DADDY somemore lol..

frigging irrinoying!

tsk..none of them wanted to cover their eyes ok! poor me..kena bullied..

got a lil hungry..look at their horrified faces..priceless haha..

RABBIT TIME! ciao! very happy girl indeed XD

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3 AM

2007-04-14T04:02:00.000-07:00

OMG! I HAVE THE BEST BF IN THE WORLD! HEE!

HE GAVE ME A BIGGGGGGGGG SURPRISE AT 3 AM after his ktv session!!!

when I was bathing..he gave me a call..n said he would be at my place in 45 mins..I tot it was kinda queer..cos he seldom takes so long to drive over..

n when he came over..the bugger was acting damn suspiciously la..=PpP..kept asking me questions like "aren't u gonna ask me where are we going?"..lol..

he parked like a short distance away..den we got out of the car..n he opened the backdoor seat n GUESS WAD!!!

HE HAD A BUNNY IN THE BACK OF HIS CAR! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! it's super cute! LOVE LOVE LOVE! omg I'm so HAPPIEEEEEEEEE! my bunny is a sweetie! it's SO CUTE I wanted to melt! it's 1 month old n soooooooo baby-fied..I shall snap many many pictures of it =D so happy now can't sleep! n I was just saying tat day the bunny on xiaxue's blog is so cute! 2 days later I got a rabbit!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I shall name my bunny Muffin! HEE..it's so cute lei! it was standing up just now when it lost it's balance..lol..accidentally rolled backwards n sat down on its hind legs..I was luffing away..EEEEEEEEEYERH so cute so cute! den I gave it water in a bottle but the baby doesn't know how to use one! so I gave it water from a tray..it's ears got all wet..HAHAHA!

I LOVE MY BF SO MUCH! he's the best! AHA (: thanks darling I LOVE YOU! made my day =D

2007-04-12T20:47:00.000-07:00

sorry la my picture quality not very clear but tat's a pic of a very lazy hammie lying down drinking water! I lazy to rotate the pic hehe..so cute right!

met WJ..Sam n Lee Ling at Somerset..WJ n I had lunch at Soup Spoon! very nice n affordable..I like the Tokyo Chicken Stew very much..oh we wanted to buy donuts..but the queue is still as long as ever! noooooo..needa eat donuts soon..oh I saw a nice makeup pouch tat I like..$11..should I get it?

Lee Ling was slightly late..while we were waiting for her..WJ was busy giving her best tai tai pose..

note the hair..the sunnies..the pose..the air of..sheer utter nonchalance..lololol..

hmmm..glam..

LOL! try harder pls WJ..

towning was so fun as usual..typical place of sin..but I didn't have my mudpie! sadded..

Sam n Lee Ling went to have Korean food while the two of us went conquering shops.. =D

den we met the other two n WJ went off to meet Kylie..

went to Macs n took hell lots of pics for an hour..trigger happy!

so crazy haha..

Lee Ling's expression..HAHA..

CHEESEY (: but we're damn happy..

den Sam went for her Jap class n ling ling n I took the train back! had fun! been so long since I met them! now all I need to do is track Lee Xian Li down..muaha..

random pics..

dotA! two pink heroes! totally wrong! I had no hero! cos my fren was supposed to swap hero with me..but when I clicked yes he pressed repick..so he ended up with TWO..we had to remake..damn amused..ok those dota players will understand..

haha..silly convo with WJ..

hehehe..tat sums up my entry! ta! =)

oh..Happy Birthday Recca!

2007-04-10T15:13:00.000-07:00

sometimes I feel so high n sometimes I feel so low! why ar..my mood can be super bad one minute..n den..WHAM! happy again..lol..sometimes I tink..MAD ONE LEI..oh no..

xiaxue's blog has left me CRAVING for a lil fluffy bunny rabbit to love! wah nv seen such a cute looking rabbit b4! lovelovelovelovelovelovelove

shall update again when I quit feeling zombified..

=D

2007-04-02T22:15:00.000-07:00

NGEHHHHHHHH

I am in a BAD MOOD.

fucking lousy ridiculous retarded feeling.

I need to get out n scream my heart out for a while

DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..I want my sweet escape..

fucking just go away n leave me alone plsssssssssssssssssssssss..maybe I'm antisocial maybe I'm crazy..maybe u folks should take a hint n realise tat I DON'T NEED U IN MY LIFE STOP BUGGING ME..I seriously dun enjoy talking to ppl I dunno well..wad to do?

when I say I am BUSY..it means tat I am otherwise OCCUPIED. I hate ppl who keep asking me to write friendster testimonials for them. dear XBB n XMMs..I have better things to do than worry about giving u tat 100th testimonial so u can hit ur target -__- if I FEEL like dropping one I WILL without u asking. SO STOP IRRITATING ME ALREADY!

n I HATE cheap ppl..those who throw themselves at others..frigging disgusting..GUYS AND GIRLS ALIKE..I wish they will disappear..

I hate nosey ppl..those busybodies always with a comment for everything..ppl who say stuff without using their brains..those who make it their job to make other ppl's business THEIR business..

I hate ppl who keep quarrelling n quarrelling over NOTHING..gives me a headache especially when I have to clean up their mess

seems like I have a lot of issues hur. pardon me but I tink the world has so many gross sights

2007-04-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

Jiye went to Msia yesterday so I had to entertain myself..with non other then my other bf Wanjun..met her at..City Hall..we had Thai Express for dinner! wahhhh I love tat place man..I'm still craving for it..we shared a green curry with chicken..kang kong n tapioca for dessert..eh cheap lei..NICE NICE NICE I WANT!!! let's go again lei!

after dinner we decided to go conquer town..since there's nothing much to see at City Hall anyway..

some ppl obviously do not have any train etiquette! WJ was trying to take a picture of me on the train n there was tis guy..trying to be part of the scenery..he was ALMOST leaning on her shoulder as if he was posing in a neoprint with her..wahhhhhh..I was super annoyed..like HELLO! wanna look also can do it more discreetly ma..we all know guys are born with the ability to perform visual gymnastics..so tat they can look at girls without getting caught by their gfs..tat's wad eyeballs are for ain't it..look left look right look up look down..tsk tsk..

town was great! I finally got myself a pair of jeans..been whining about it for ages cos mine's super loose..bleah..n some other purchases..HEHE..

after tat we were kinda tired..or rather WJ was very exhausted dunno why wonder wad she did in the afternoon..but we decided it was too early to go home especially on a Sat night so we went to our fave hangout..NYDC..dunno how many times tis week already..

I had an Irish Cream mudpie which totally owned =D while she had hot chocolate..during one of her blur moments..she said.."maybe I'll have the hot chocolate with mash potatoes"..I was totally puzzled n craning my neck to see WHY on earth would any eatery serve hot chocolate with mash potatoes..kua kua..it was..HOT CHOCOLATE WITH MARSHMELLOWS..walao eh wad a screwup right..her eyes so big..also lidat..cokeye =D

a complete retarded picture..

WJ's outfit..which looks completely obscene dun u agree? =PpP HEHE..tis is to get back at her for posting a similar DEFAMATORY picture of me on HER blog..whahaha..I was dressed decently yesterday ok..t-shirt n jeans..she ar..tsk tsk..wakaka..I tink I better find a nice burial place..when she sees tis..jialat

the bf suddenly smsed n said he was on the way home..n all of a suddenly he said he was reaching town..so WJ hitched a ride home..now Mr. Viceroy/Mr. Boon/Kylie owes me one too HEHE..

n btw Emo..WJ called u a rambutan..go settle the score with her please =D

2007-03-31T03:51:00.000-07:00

I was sooooooooo happy to see the bf today after the past few days ahhh..ok tis is crazy..

I'm going to file a missing person report soon if I dun catch sight of Lim Shu Xian n Lee Xian Li very soon -__________________-"

I wanna watch a thriller! where's my Shrek 3 coming out? Spiderman 3? Harry Potter? omg I can't waitttttttttttttttttttttttt..........................

kbox? club?

plsplsplsplspls

2007-03-29T18:31:00.000-07:00

blogger is screwed! I did the colourgenics thing tat WJ did but dunno it decided to eat up my entry..so I did astrology instead..counted with my birthdate n birthhour blah blah blah

How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others:

You have a sensible and realistic outlook on life and your two feet are always planted firmly on the ground (though you may, on occasion, have your head in the clouds). Others often see you as a rock of strength, solid, reliable, dependable, and constant. You are, in fact, amazingly consistent for you possess great powers of endurance and do not like to make changes or adjustments in your regular routine. You do things deliberately and methodically and do not easily accommodate the unexpected. Though you have a gentle, even soft, appearance, you are enormously strong-willed and stubborn. You go at your own pace and refuse to be rushed or pushed into anything before you feel sure about it. You can be coaxed and persuaded by charm, beauty, love, or affection - but never forced. You won't fight either, but simply stubbornly resist any attempt to coerce you to do something you do not want to do.

oops..tis really sounds like me..stubborn whaha..refuse to be forced into doing anything I dun wanna do..n man I really tink I'm constant to the point of boring..

The Inner You; Your Real Motivation:

Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private, you are not a person who is easy to get to know and understand. You are extremely sensitive but disinclined to show it, and you allow only a special few into your inner world. Like a wary animal, you are cautious and mistrustful of those you do not know until you "sniff them out". You are very, very instinctive and intuitive. You usually have a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though you may be unable to clearly articulate why you feel as you do. Your feelings and perceptions go deeper than words.

lol..I tink I'm easy enough to understand just tat I dun like to talk about my feelings..only to a very few ppl..

O_O

2007-03-29T04:03:00.000-07:00

I am convinced..my good buddy B1 is an airhead..HAHAHA

n my words come with justification..lol..here's proof..

me: ur hand ma

me: u make tt sign

Wanjun: PEAVE

me: lol

Wanjun: PEASE

me: ...

me: HAHAHAHA

Wanjun : PASE

me: LOL

Wanjun: PEASE

Wanjun: PEEVE

me: wtf

Wanjun: SIMI!

me: wad u trying to type wj?

Wanjun: omg

Wanjun: PEASE

Wanjun: FINAL

me: ...

lol my dear girl the word is PEACE..!!! HAHAHA..goodnight cya tmr (:

2007-03-29T02:24:00.000-07:00

most of the times..I put my grandma's address as my mailing address becos my mom is a serious fucker who can't keep her hands to herself..

tat day I had a letter..n my grandma passed it to me unopened..

I placed it..HID IT..somewhere in my room cos I was too lazy to open it..

when I took it out today..it was open..

wah fucker.

just becos my dad is a henpecked husband doesn't mean u can lord it over everyone in the house.

n she had the cheek to call my grandma n scold her asking why my stuff is sent to her house..

DOH.

i'm going to open her cupboard n read all her documents tmr

2007-03-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

today is just one of those days..when I woke up feeling totally blue -_- if I could growl I'd be growling away right now

SIAN

why so many problems one?

everyone is dumping their problems on me..I mean it's not tat I dun care..but I get really affected as well..n today I just happen to have my own share of problems..zzzzz..so it's like combo la

dumbass problems stemming from an inflated ego..if all of u will just SHUTUP n STOP ARGUING over non-existent problems all of us can happily continue being friends

friendster is another irritating retarded shit tat pisses me off. girls are NOT slabs of meat FFS. hell to those ppl who go around behaving otherwise

BGR problems..as I repeated sooooooo many donkey times..YOU should go n get some sleep first..n talk things out again tmr..everything will work out la..make me feel so worried for u only..

n for R..I dunno wad to say..I tink u're really asking for trouble..u know he's lidat n u INSIST on sticking to an ass..dun wanna save urself..wad do u expect others to do??????????????????

money problems..shit la..all my mom does is tell me how she's not going to pay for my studies..like I'm even asking u to pay..all I ask is for u to SHUT UR TRAP LA..3 secs ago she waved the utility bills in front of my face n asked me to pay

wad the heck lei..so frustrated I feel like screaming..

poor ppl like me are worried about money when tis ass has been saying how she owns 6 pairs of Gucci sunglasses. for fuck la. so hao lian for wad. got 6 pairs of eyes meh?

CRIES

2007-03-25T04:08:00.000-07:00

I just witnessed the most vulgar conversation I've ever seen between friends.

n it made me feel damn depressed n cynical all at once. Isa is a GIRL u're a GUY for heaven's sake she was just trying to effing HELP cos u're all her frens..n even if u didn't want her to help u could have said so nicely..but NO..u had to call ur fren a dog..a bitch..a wannabe..n all the hokkien vulgarities

DOH

dun even know how to describe tat feeling.

some ppl really suffer from verbal diahorrhea.

ego worth more than friends hur. just for tat moment of anger. u dun watch ur mouth n all the horrible words come out.

just fuck friendship hur?

I guess. tat's just the world.

time to beat a retreat.

sanctuary. is when. u decide to distance urself from everyone so tat u won't get hurt.

I seriously feel like crap today

2007-03-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

Mr Bean's Holiday is a nice show! go watch XD I tink he's a great comedian..his facial expressions are really priceless!

gramps fainted in her kitchen today n needed 3 stitches@@ my heart sank when I heard..visited her just now n she seems fine..THANK HEAVENS!

had dinner with my grandpa just now..he's so funny seriously..all his actions..super animated..when we were crossing the road..he held my hand..n when I reminded him I'm a 20 year old perfectly capable of crossing the street..his reply.."cars will be more afraid of knocking down 2 ppl at once".. -__________________-" kua kua kuaaaaa

my beauty sleep was interrupted tis morning by a very random sms sent by Emo.. -_- about how India isn't gonna be in the world cup cos they're not even in the semi finals n how she felt like strangling them..OMG hahaha..is tat bimbotic or whut????

oh my mom's stuff just caught fire..she was burning the aromatherapy thing..I recall looking at it when I entered the room cos it was kinda a big flame..my dad told her about it but she just shrugged it off..lol..next minute she was screaming fire..hahahaha..

bf has gone CHIONGING at St. James tsk tsk =PpP so gf is at home intending to dotA..whahaha..

2007-03-21T01:17:00.000-07:00

...sigh...fine...

you...WIN

Emo's coming back tmr (: yay!

2007-03-19T06:49:00.000-07:00

went towning again last Friday..always so fun XD got myself some new purchases..happy happy..

WJ n I took many pictures with Kylie's cam..but as usual..the cuckoo has YET so send me anything..tsk tsk..we really put it to good use..I dun tink guys have much use for a cam la hur..take left take right also look the same one..

jeepers..some buggers tried to pick us up! damn funny la tat one..he wrote on a piece of paper "Hi my name is Soap..can I get to know u?" LOL!!! trying to be funny@@ luckily we reached our stop already at tat time..so WJ n I just fled from the bus..

maybe I should start blogging more often so I can remember wad I did..

we both sat on the railing in front of Cine tat night waiting for our respective..............er.....chauffeurs to pick us up HEHEHE..I'm gonna get killed for tis sentence..but mine reached first cos he's some speed demon -_-" while hers is more..........cautious..I'm trying to use politically correct words here so I won't get beaten up =PpP the car passed by hers n BOYYYYYYYYY..someone was smiling away so happily hur XD

Saturday was my grandma's 13 year death anniversary..hmmmmmmm..I still miss her lots though..seems like it was just yesterday I was standing on the steps with her..hanging around the kitchen watching her cook..helping her zip the back of her dress..chopping up her plants >
Jiye came to meet me in the middle of the night after his.."study" session at Queensway mac..muahaha..I was super happy to see him la! but he only told me he was arriving..5 mins b4 he arrived..n so I looked like a mess! went downstairs in my specs n everything..EEEEEEEEYERH..unglam unglam..

Sunday..went to Sim Lim cos Jiye wanted to look at laptops..whahaha..who says girls are indecisive? I will just buy wadever I like..he has to compare here..compare there..den maybe like tis..maybe like tat..how ar..HOW AR??? cannot decide which one to get =PpP hehe..

had my first prata bomb too..wah so nice! dunno which cave I've been living in man..

=( I miss kbox n the beach! I wanna gooooooo!

on another note..I wish ppl will start using their brains b4 talking..I dun owe u anything..nothing gives u the right to speak in tat manner..just becos we're not together..doesn't mean u can come n insult me as n when u feel like it..or treat me like some dumb shit without any feelings..how would u feel if someone did tat to ur gf u fucking dumbshit

other than tat..I've been in an insanely good mood since Friday (: whee!

Sam! our hammies have grown a lot..haha..n they're super cheeky critters..come see them soon kay!

2007-03-16T02:45:00.000-07:00

the thing I hate most..is ppl with no effing manners..

really..wad gives u the right to talk to me as if I owe u a living..

FUCK YOU RON. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

curse n swear at me for NO FUCKING REASON. wtf..mouth itchy ar? such ppl just..dirty the world..SHIT YOU LAR..spoil my mood only..fucking piece of useless shit rot in hell die rotten bastard..not ONCE but TWICE..can't you just talk nicely?????? guess it will kill u hur no brainer..ZZZZZZz

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK OFFFFFFFFF

2007-03-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

pics from Monday..basket Photobucket is taking AGES to upload the pics #&$#!!

hehe..my er........twin n I..lol

with Emo! XDXD

oops..looks like an ad for Olympus hehe..

Coffee Bean whee! shan't put Emo's pic up becos she will tell me she looks unglam n blah blah..hahaha..

er........the trigger happy person being vain..HAHA..I put tis up cos u defamed me on ur blog! *squeals..

Tuesday..

met my bf at dunno where..can't tell the difference between Raffles Place..City Hall..Raffles City etc@@ all sounds the same to me..had Pizza Hut! been a long time since I last ate there..Hawaiin Pizza rocks! I love pineapple hehe..oh..Jiye bought me a soft toy! muahaha..

everyone meet..

it is NOT a pig for heaven's sake!!! n it's called BLUE NOSE..dun ask me why I just like to call it tat..haha..n I'm not colour blind I can see it has a pink nose!

cute right cute right cute right?

WHEEEEEEEEE! it's lying happily on my bed now..muahaha..thank you Jiye! =PpP

Wed..

got my results! WHAHAHA..best results I had in 3 years of poly..superbly HAPPY!

Ethical Dilemmas: B
Mass Media in Singapore & Asia: B+
Media Law: B+
Photojournalism: A+
Print Journalism: C+
Radio Journalism: C+
World Issues: A Singapore Perspective: B+

first time no Ds! MUAHAHA..GPA tis sem is 3.2083! my eyes nearly fell out when I saw..(: (: (:

YAY I DID IT! wakaka..despite all the things tat was going on in my life..

I have graduated omg! which reminds me of the time..when Esther Lai told me tat I was never gonna make it..

=D I guess I have to thank her..cos I was determined to show her tat I could do it! WHEE..n I didn't need her school in order to get a cert XD in 2003..I promised to go back n throw my certs at her face..n I can do it now! wah so happy so happy..

went knocking on WJ's door at 8 am..haha..surprised everyone..mostly myself..I haven't seen the sun tis early for so long..dragged her for Mac breakfast..went back to her house to slack..we were supposed to go out..but we were too lazy..I was too tired..ended up snoozing for 5 hours -_-" her dad even told her mom tat her 2nd daughter was sleeping@@ oops..haha..had dinner at her place..her mom is an excellent cook! I tink she's trying to fatten me up somehow..so many dishes! XD

I'm at home now cos WJ has gone datingggggg (: n Emo is going Bali tmr..n Samapi is working =( I haven't seen her for ages I miss her so much..n er....Jiye has gone AWOL hahaha..

had a nightmare last night couldn't sleep so tired now! I dreamt tat I was having an exam..n my answers smudged n I handed in BLANK PAPER! scary right!!! I woke up crying@@ haha must be crazy already..

I wanna go kbox..I wanna watch Shrek 3! TAKERS ANYONE?

=PpP

2007-03-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

muaha! finally hit town after ages n ages! sooooooooo happy! met WJ at Aljunied..slightly late la..not so bad..but she was..........as usual..even later =PpP

she bought me a T-shirt tat said "Always late but worth the wait!" MUAHA..wad lorh..u're always later..but I agree I'm worth the wait HEHE..n some cute earrings! XD thank youuuuuuuuuu..whee!

met Yiling at Wisma..no wonder I tot y the person looked so familiar! hehe..we had lunch at Food Republic..I haven't been there b4 >.< had Hokkien Mee..not bad la..but I couldn't finish my food..dunno y but I've been eating lesser n lesser..I lost weight!!! bleah..

went Far East..SO SAD I HAVE NO MONEY TODAY! BOO..so we only walked the first level of the place..ended up yakking for an hour with the Blossomz salesgirl instead..she has been engaged ever since she was 19!!! omgomg..19 years old I still shaking leg lei..!!!

wahhhhh I saw stuff tat I want! I needa get new blusher cos I DROPPED MINE AGAIN..22 bucks from body shop bleah..n I liked the perfume which Emo showed me! NICE NICE! forgot wad it is..Romance from Ralph Lauren ah..bought another eyeshadow stick from Missha! it is really super nice to use! 8 bucks plus only lorh..wah we took so many pix..

Wanjun abandoned both of us later for Kyle HEHE..left Emo n I to wander about town..had dinner at Yoshinoya! both of us sat there rotting n talking nonsense..HAHA..so fun Emo I missed u lots lorh! until Taka was CLOSED n we almost had to spend the night there! I was kinda panicky cos of the horror show which I watched the day b4 kua kua kua..lol The Haunted School..basket! the toilet scene totally freaked me out...BLEAH!

whee! I had a fun fun day..I miss my frens XD

SENTOSA PLSSSSSSSSSS..the sun the wind the sea HEAVEN MUAHA

2007-03-09T00:41:00.000-08:00

YOU. are a complete bastard through n through.

wadever. I dun give a heck. thought it through already. I've been overly emotional all these while..tsk tsk..stupid..

life is borrrrrrrring! WJ has left me alone in Singapore to rot..Sam is busy kbox-ing away hahaha..n I am..committing one blunder after the other..like misplacing housekeys..alighting at wrong stops..turning on the shower by accident@@

went IT show! dunno wad to buy also..met XB there..gave me a shock..suddenly realised I miss ppl from sch! >.<

blogging rubbish..

time to slp..off to beddie bye!

2007-03-03T12:24:00.000-08:00

random post..random pix..

sorry la lazy to rotate the pic..just tilt ur head a bit..tis is Tan Wanjun..SUPPOSED to be studying ar..but just take a look at tat pink panther expression on her face..tsk tsk..

see these 2? study dun study..look at the hp in her hand! trigger happy..walao eh

busy checking out their pics -_-"

the caterpillar adding yet ANOTHER pair of shoes to her already horrific collection of shoes..lol..WJ u got so many pairs of feet ar???

guess wad's tis..looks like a dead animal right?

taken from another angle..still looks like a dead animal to me..

of cos..tis kinda thing can only belong to one person la hur..WJ..it's her PURSE omg -_-" which she insists is from PARIS..I insist it's a dead rat XD

Sam n I suddenly decided tat we wanted to be pet owners yesterday..so we went to Vivocity's Pet Safari! ahhhhhhh..we are now new mummies!..hahaha..

WOW SO CUTE! meet Wan n June..hahaha kidding la the joker actually believed me ok..lol..meet Iwo n Jima! I wanted to call them Cookies n Cream but Sam wanted Jap name basket..n I could only tink of tat..sorry la..ppl no inspiration..wad to do..

they are so so so cute! pretty Sapphires! super tiny..n very wobbly n unsteady on their feet..hilarious to watch! I've carried them so many times already....I wish I could hug them! eeeeeeeeek..love them to bits! hehe..HAPPY! Sam I promise I'll look after them well ok =D my mom scolded me when I got home but when I was playing with them she came n look also..whahaha..GEI SIAO one la she..

!!!!! HI BABY!!!!! *Screams with excitement

n we saw cute cute cute dogs as well..I love animals HEE!

furballs! love at first sight lei!

so sweet!

errrrrrrr.......lol..a towel????

XD love

2007-03-02T03:30:00.000-08:00

aye. the future is so scary. How?

I dun wanna grow up =(

I wish I could have stayed 18 forever

hmmms

2007-03-01T18:47:00.000-08:00

sigh.

I feel so empty.

2007-02-28T02:55:00.000-08:00

after staring at the the pic with WJ holding 2 sets of cutlery..n suddenly I thought of..

meet KADABRA! a psychic pokemon..height: 1.3m..weight 56.5kg

more details for those who dunno (mainly WJ):

Kadabra (ユンゲラー, Yungerā, Yungerer in original Japanese language versions) is one of 493 fictional species of Pokémon in the Pokemon franchise. Kadabra's name is derived from the magician's parlance term, abracadabra. The Japanese name Yungerer is a reference to psychic Uri Gellar, doubly so because of the spoon it always holds.

Kadabra is a strong psychic pokémon that owes much of its power to the alpha waves it emits from its body at all times. These alpha waves are affected by Kadabra's current mental state - if it has a headache, the waves change. The psychic power it gives off can also trigger off headaches to nearby humans. (hmmm..explains why I get headaches so often ar WJ)

Kadabra is vaguely fox-like in appearance. It stands on two legs and always holds a silver spoon. (lol..WJ the "hu li"..oh yeah can imagine..n yea she stands on 2 legs..n the silver spoon?)

LOL!!!!! look at the SPOONS y'all! n the look on her face..hahaha..it is now officially known as THE LOOK when u are trying to emit ALPHA WAVES!

but look closely..she is holding 2 spoons! so she is NOT Kadabra..she is in fact..

ALAKAZAM! evolved form of Kadabra! height 1.5m..weight 48kg (sia la WJ why u lose weight)

Alakazam is vaguely fox-like in appearance, although it loses the thick tail it once possessed as Kadabra. It stands on two legs and always holds two silver spoons. Its muscles are far underdeveloped, so Alakazam uses its psychic powers to move parts of its body. This makes Alakazam's frail body its weakness. (frail body??????? lol cough cough)

so I guess u see the resemblance..

n now for a very intelligent conversation with hers truly..

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
okaye continue blogging

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
pls put something nice

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
if not u will see dead fishes

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
in ur fish soup tml

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? says: HAHA

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? says:
u mean u expect to see live fish?

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
-_-"

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
SHIT U

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
HAHAHHA

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? says:
WHOO

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
I am trying to bluff u

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says: chey

--------------> This is called the "damage control part"

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? says: sheer brillance

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
so it proves ure half as intellectual

Wanjun I think I am, B2! says:
as wanjun

------------> n this is what we usually call the "trying to save face part"

HEHEHE..I tink I'm so dead lol..XD goodnight!

2007-02-27T23:14:00.000-08:00

11:15 P.M.

=( is it better to know or not to know? ignorance is bliss. maybe I'm not good enough maybe I'm lacking somewhere maybe maybe maybe. maybe I ask for too much. but I just ask to be loved the way I love.

GOD, WAD IS WRONG WITH ME???????

why why why why why WHY

caring is really tiring. I feel tired I feel confused I feel stupid I feel devastated my eyes hurt like hell

I give up on this very complicated feeling which is not meant for me at all. Someone tell me. Whut is love???????????????

why can't I be happy all the time?

__________________________________________________________

2:42 A.M.

2007-02-27T02:42:00.000-08:00

haven't blogged in a long time!

first things first..happy 3 months darling! love u XD

went to dye my hair on Friday..so sad..I like red hair! the lady offered me some hair treatment which would make my hair flaming red again..but I tot of the many ppl who will kill me if I did SOB..so it was just a choice between black or brown..I chose black cos she said brown can't cover the red..I DUN LIKE!!!

=( b4 I left the house!

n now..BOO..look like a ghost!

went to WJ's house after tat where she had a good laugh over it.. >.< met the bf after tat for the usual..lan gaming n hanging out until the wee hours of the morning..hee a good part of Saturday was spent in an unmoving state -_- cos I slept until 3! sooooooooo many missed calls! goodness..I just slept thru everything..supposed to go to my granduncle's wake..waited for my bro to come home..waited till 9.30 n I decided to go out..

guess who was wearing a T-shirt with those words? I was rendered speechless for a moment..haha..damn BHB larh~~

Sunday..went to granduncle's wake in the morning..his picture was really beautiful..kinda sad la..not very close but..I'll always remember him..

went home around 2+..Sam came to my place..haha..she did funny stuff to my comp while I was bathing n getting ready to go out..basket..she changed my desktop pic n msn pic to fugly pics of me courtesy of WJ..WJ dun u DARE ask me why I post unglam pics of u ar -_-" dammit!

met WJ after tat n we went Chinatown! had stingray n kangkong for dinner..yummy! plus tangyuan for dessert..den we went Kbox! it was the CRAZIEST session we ever had..we started out alright..singing normally n everything but as time went by..we got higher n higher over wad I also dunno..n started screaming n screeching n dancing n jumping all over the place..WJ n I did ridiculous things..took videos..n since the digicam belonged to Sam dearest..the owner didn't take any silly pics of herself! pui..one day I will get a digicam n record u back Sammo! U can't hide forever! n tat WJ took pictures of my rear end wtf!! I know u're so in love with me but u dun need to do tat XD post it up n u're DEAD..oh n AMRUTA JOSHI! join us for kbox! I swear u will like it! it's FUNNNNNNN..ahhaha..I picked so many stupid songs it was SO FUN to sing ok..like Sexbomb >.< Love Potion No.9 etc etc..haha..retarded! n it was CHEAP! we sang from 8 till 2+..for only $14 each..YAY! fun fun..

I am deep in thought while WJ is just............plain hungry hahaha..one person using 2 sets of cutlery =/

look at Sam's winning smile hahaha..she looks like she's in sheer bliss..of cos la..WJ on one side n me on the other =PpP

S.H.E Superstar - pardon the screeching >.<

David Tao & Jolin Tsai Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo part 1 - oops..we bumped our heads..haha..

part 2 - ah!!!

My Heart Will Go On - =/ omgomgomg!

Tubthumping

lol..no more reputation

2007-02-23T01:06:00.000-08:00

I feel dizzy n nauseous! =( noooooooooooooo!!!

but anyways..today was fun! met Samanthapi (sounds like a pokemon right) at Somerset at erm..hmm..3+ though we were supposed to meet at 1..haha..kept pushing back the time cos I was slow..@@ but nvm WJ was SLOWER! while waiting for her grand entrance we walked around first..n I couldn't control myself..I got another ear piercing -_-" shizz..dragged Sam to Blossomz..got myself a skirt there..while she bought a pair of pretty shorts! XD we didn't have the discount card cos WJ wasn't around but ah..always go there so often the salesgirl said.."it doesn't matter I remember the card number already..u were here 2 days ago"..omgwtfbbqchickenwing HAHAHAHA..Sam the traitor den proceeded to apologise to her saying "I'm sorry but my fren is CRAZY"..so bad right!

we were starving to death by den so I called the latecomer XD who was STILL at her house mrt..so we went to HK Cafe first..n ordered a pile of food..

almost killed ourselves eating..hahaha..den finally WJ graced us with her appearance..tsk..those 2 ar..made so much noise arguing n debating n slamming the table..Fel just shook her head n continued eating..hahaha..neutral party =PpP

went shopping after tat! so fun..those 2 long legged creatures bullied me! walao they walked damn fast n left me behind lorh =( some frens sob..despite my many protests n telling them to slow down..basket lorh..their 1 stride = 3 steps for me lorh..

went to Far East..PLACE OF SIN as usual..we went to Mystiz where the salegirl remembered us >.<

wahhhhhhhhhh a lot of damage done..

WJ abandoned us tis time round halfway to meet her newfound frens! haha..the lameass..hehe..tried to console us by saying tat if her frens n us fell into the sea she will save us first..SO COMFORTING AH WJ!

=( I'm going to change my hair colour soon! so sad..I'm gonna miss having red hair! it's so fun u know..so how ppl? I can't decide..BLACK OR BROWN?!?!?!?!?! HELP MEEEEEEEE!

wah I'm scared I do smth stupid to my hair like cut some outlandish hairstyle@@ I just can't help it I like trying new stuff! omgomgomgomgomg..I wanna cut a mohawk =/ but I tink firstly my frens will die of shock n my family will disown me..n I'll be unemployed for the next few months or so..kua kua

SELF CONTROL! oh no..

feet so tired..walked for so long! throat also tired..talked so much haha..from 3 non stop till 10..LOOK SAM! ur worries nv surfaced ok =PpP

so how..black or brown????????????????

2007-02-22T02:25:00.000-08:00

pretty! but the camera doesn't do it justice haha..n the light reflecting off it is distracting..but I like! thanks dear..but I'm not going to stop wearing my dog chain -_-" as u all call it ok..SO EVIL LEI u ppl..bully me!

spent a lazy afternoon with WJ again >.<

tsk tsk..the NAUGHTY GIRL has gone CLUBBING or possibly since the time now is 2:25 she is STILL CLUBBING!! =PpP unlike me..fel so good man..STAY AT HOME hahaha..n chat with Sam on msn..YAY! going to see Samapi tmr..so happy! the bugger hasn't seen anyone's face since Monday in her own words..becos she is LAZY! whee..shall get my bikini n my skirt tmr..whoohoo..happy!

HEE..I'm very happy today..WHEE-U-WEET! XD

[edited]

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
dowan talk to u la

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
HAHA

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
skali tmr runout of things to say

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
omg

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
wad nonsense

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
HAHAHA

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
rly waddd

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
we where got run out of things to say -_-

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
u mad ar

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
we've been talking for 3 years

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
LOL

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
n now u worry

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
must have back-up mah

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
hahaha!

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
a bit too soon ar

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
-_-

samapi: april! [Letters from Iwo Jima] says:
bugger fel

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.:: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` Are you tinking wad I'm tinking B1? AMNIT AIRHEAD YO says:
wakaka

HAHAHAHA..!

2007-02-21T02:32:00.000-08:00

XD

my bf's back! I'm reaaaaaaaaally happy! whee! cheered my mood up immensely

here's wad I've been up to today!

wahhhhhhh so happy to see them ok..haven't met them for a record number of days..so sad Sam couldn't make it..she was sick..infected with the lazy bug =PpP stupid Wanjune put tat Chinese word on top of my head..DAMMIT!

n they insist tat I look like a..a..ok nvm shan't say in tis picture..BASKET! humph..I have unglam pics of u both ok..dun make me blackmail u! XD

methinks Wanjune needs a new scanner =D

towning was FUNNNNNNN..Soup Spoon was delicious! went shopping after tat..I tink we behaved like some hooligans let loose..after so many days of sheer boredom..bought prettilicious stuff! whahaha..so happy..WHEE..got a necklace..some clips..hp accessories..tops..was so tempted to buy shoes but I didn't la @@ cannot spend all at one go..I've still got things which I NEED to buy!

went Crystal Jade for dinner..becos Emo was vegetarian! wah we hunted around for vegetarian food ok! finally..........WJ n I ate -_- prawn dumpling noodle..omg haha..wah..when I was asking her wad it was..her reply was total ownage ok..

WJ: "Jiao Zi is dumpling..Wanton is Yun Tun"

sheer brilliance ok..direct translation lol..as if I couldn't read tat off the menu itself -_- haha..thanks WJ tat helped alot in explaining wad's wad..

n at the mrt station..

WJ: "I enjoy going out n making out..........."

HAHAHAHA..!

she wanted to say MAKE UP but yea slip of the tongue la hur XD

I attribute tat to her inner fantasies la =PpP no wonder she made such a slip up..HEH HEH HEH

Wed: slack with WJ at her place
Thurs: slack with them again in town
Fri: sentosa
Sat: godknowswad
Sun: ktv

WHOO!

2007-02-19T10:53:00.000-08:00

10:59 p.m

I dun tink I question very much. but suddenly I just see stuff which makes me feel............... uncomfortable.....strange..........it's just can't be described.....tis stupid feeling which makes me feel like shit.

paranoid or wad I dunno la hur. but wadever ppl expect from me I expect the same from them as well. if you want me to do it. you do it to. want me to behave in a certain manner? SAME GOES.

FULL MEASURE. nothing less.

I'm cranky n highly pmsy. must be all the things which I'm not saying which is piling up from everywhere. n all the crappy days which I have been having.

HELP ME SOMEONE. my meter for information is currently at FULL. don't. tell. me. any. more. than. what. I. need. to. know. I get affected. really affected.

dear all. please don't meet me in the next 24 hours. I'm not myself.

2007-02-19T09:57:00.000-08:00

10 a.m.

just had a shouting match with my parents. I feel so exhausted now. cried until my eyes look like they belong to goldfish.

my parents are fucked up. I didn't want to go out becos I'm not feeling well. I told them my skin hurts like crap n I barely slept last night becos it was really painful. it really felt like it was on fire la.

their response?

mom: come on la. yesterday nv hear u say pain. today suddenly lidat. I dun care. Wake up NOW n go out. WHERE? SHOW ME. WHERE WHERE?

dad: serves u right.

.....................wtf? I was in pain n tat's wad they said. I got really upset n started screaming abt how biased they were becos the moment my bro says he's unwell they insist he see a doctor.

mom: next time u need anything dun ask me. dun ask me for money.

dad: u're have been nothing but trouble since u were a kid. ur bro is so much better.

ok fine so I'm nothing but a waste of money n resources to both of them.

I'm not ok. really not ok. dun comfort me by saying tat they actually care for me becos I know they really DON'T. maybe if I died they will share a tear or two. like the death of a hamster or smth. but YA. I mean nothing to them at all.

they are forever complaining about me. I wanted to pack my bags n just leave just now. but. GO WHERE? gramps isn't in Singapore. n it's CNY. I can't appear at my frens house looking all glum.

I told my dad tat I HATE HIM. fucked up bastard.

year end last year when I fainted at tampines mrt. my mom was at home watching tv. when I called n told her.

mom: serves u right.

........................................she didn't even come n pick me up. didn't ask how I was.

dad: I'm outside la. too far away.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. in the end a fren had to come n pick me up n bring me to the doctor.

WTF. I FAINTED. even STRANGERS rushed to help me. but not my own freaking parents. I wonder if I'm really their kid. I never felt more hurt in my entire life.

n today they only shut their mouths abt how I'm a piece of worthless nothing when my brother started screaming at them n told them to shut the fuck up. n how biased they are becos they make a BIG DEAL when he just lets out a tiny cough but do nothing when I'm really damn ill.

FUCKTARDS.

so now I'm at home with my bro becos he refused to go out with those 2 assholes.

thank god for small miracles.

I hate cny. is it going to be over soon?
I hate my parents. I am going to leave them in drains in their old age.

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2007-02-19T01:04:00.000-08:00

1:04 a.m.

Fri: did my uni application! but I haven't made payment..I keep forgetting..doggone! for NUS I applied Arts & Social Sciences n Business Administration..same as Samapi! n for NTU..psychology..communication studies n sociology! yea..my life really depends on it..NUS..ACCEPT ME PLS!

here's both of us being completely retarded at CPF building while waiting for my mom..tis very happening person went to club tat night ok! =PpP not like me so good..stay at home HEHE..XD

Sat: -_-" I played dotA for 15 hours..stopping just to bathe n eat..reunion dinner with my grandpa..gramps left for Adelaide..man she really knows how to wander..bf left for Thailand I tink.. =( tsk tsk..I miss him lots! "4 days of wilderness" he calls it..hahaha..anyway dotA craze is back for me! so fun..I played until...........5 am..with Wanjune n her fren..Aloysius..

1st day of CNY: bad start ok..heard n saw some stuff which I dun really wanna know..luckily it's so passe..nobody bothers anyway so wadever..n den..quarrelled with some........be-yotch online..cos apparently some ppl do not believe in having any manners..made so many snide remarks until I just couldn't control myself....zzzzz..Zen n WJ agreed with me as well so the bugger had no choice but to shutup..YAY..

but today is kinda a bad day for me..I just hate CNY! I dun like visiting my relatives..

1. my dad was being a bitch. tis morning he started complaining about how I asked him to fetch me to the mrt station to meet WJ. "waste my time la..half an hour..next time dun ask me to fetch u"..HELLO..today is SUNDAY..why are u complaining abt smth tat happened on FRIDAY???? n I only asked him to fetch me to TAMPINES MRT STATION..which is like.......a 5 min drive..n only becos my card had NO MONEY..wth? he doesn't complain abt fetching my bro n even OFFERS to drive him around at 5 am in the morning..effing hell..biased also dunnit to be so obvious right?

2. went to my 4th aunt's place at Clementi. as u all prolly know..I'm not a great fan of her..yea so I was in a cranky mood..it was terrible ok..fucking relatives kept making comments abt my appearances..WAD I LOOK LIKE A MONKEY? FUCK YOU LA. n each n everyone of them had comments like..WHY WOULD ANYONE IN THEIR RIGHT MINDS HAVE PINK HAIR? obviously they've nv heard of freedom of choice. zzzzzzzz. I almost exploded ok. n wad. YOU ARE NOT YOUNG ANYMORE. WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO EMPLOY YOU?

FUCKKKKKKKKK OFF already! I really can't believe I'm related to such people -_-". n it's not tat I can't take jokes..but even jokes have limits..n those remarks didn't sound remotely funny at all to me.

3. they took my HANDPHONE n started BROWSING THRU my stuff EVEN THOUGH I WAS PROTESTING N THEY KEPT PUTTING IT SOMEWHERE OUT OF MY REACH.

omg how annoying can they get? I SAID NO. did I have to repeat it in different languages????? n they kept stretching their hands out n asking me for my phone. WTF IS WRONG WITH U PPL?????? n made fucked up comments abt my frens..my bf..until I started fuming. den they started apologising n POKING ME when my face spelt LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. I DUN NEED UR FUCKSHIT COMMENTS WHEN I DUN TINK UR LIFE IS BETTER THAN MINE IN ANYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY MANNER. IF U'RE TAT FANTASTIC. U WOULD BE MARRIED BY NOW. HELLOOOOO. U'RE THE ONE WHO IS MATHER-FUCKING THIRTY YEARS OLD. NOT ME. still dare to tell me I'm not young anymore. EFF YOU REALLY.

4. comments on my clothes. at least I dun dress like I just stepped out of the pages of an early history book. n even if u dress like shit I'm too polite to comment on how atrocious ur clothes look. I just close my eyes n give a pained look. ASSHOLES.

5. one of my cousins..........is too close for comfort -_-" I dunno but I just feel uncomfortable..he just sits too near n I tink he is looking at me inappropriately.........ZZZZZZZZZZ..n he kept...........ruffling my hair wtf n touching my shoulders..URGHHHHHHHHHHHHH..I DUN LIKE! maybe he's just affectionate..maybe I'm too paranoid..BUT I DUN LIKE! so I just hid upstairs to avoid talking

6. just becos I studied mass comm doesn't mean I'm a technician in anyway -_-" so there's simply no point asking me how ur HDTV works becos I DUN KNOW. n it's alright to ask. but it is NOT ALRIGHT to tell me how I'm not learning anything in school becos I have no idea how to transfer pictures into ur damned tv

7. den they went over to my house. n started touching my stuff. my result slips. n saying how my grades deprove which each semester. honestly. there's such a word called TACTFULNESS. ok so I'm no rocket scientist. my grades are average. but so wad? does it make me any less human?

Bottomline: I hate my relatives. there's no way I'm going visiting again next year. they are a pain in the rear end.

Happy CNY to my frens n their families anyway. Mine always sucks real bad I can't wait for these few days to be over. Tuesday tuesday..meeting Emo n WJ n my bf is coming back. Sam can't make it =( I miss u ppl so much it's like having a constant stomachache..THANK GOODNESS I HAVE SMTH TO LOOK FORWARD TO.

Nightmare. Maybe I can feign sickness tmr.

Sian.

here's me today..look like monkey meh? really so ugly ar?

basket.

2007-02-16T02:04:00.000-08:00

I wanted to blog tis last night..but obviously I was incoherent due to sheer fatigue..but now..

YAYNESS! we are done with masina! I tink I'm gonna pass.. =D I happily junked my notes after tat into the nearest bin..n oh..I hate the stupid dustbins with the legs sticking out! though I've seen them so many times I got a scare today AGAIN..dohhhh..went to collect group project for masina after tat..it's a B la..WOOT..thought we were gonna fail..^5 k Amruta..except for the 2 jokers who I dun tink even deserve to pass at all -_-" basket haha..n then we went to pay library fines..actually not me ok..I'm a good citizen HEE..$30 worth of fines ok..wad are u ppl doing!!!!

went to town after tat with the usuals la..FINALLY SAW LEE LING! so happy la but I didn't show it..haha cos I would have given her a huge smack on the back if I did..BLOSSOMZ again..serious WEAK SPOT lei..but I controlled myself! cos I dowan to live on fresh air n water for the next week..tsk..Hong Kong Cafe was GOOD la..all the food so nice..but I still haven't tried the french toast n bo luo bao lei @@..went to meet the bf after tat to play dotA aha..sorry la Samapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii >.<

ok I shall blog about poly now..

it seemed like yesterday when I first entered poly la..n now..it's over..wahhhh..I didn't tink tis day would come so soon....I'm so not prepared! poly life is seriously AWESOME..actually I tink it was the best time of my life..I mean seeing my frens everyday is just so..uplifting..I dunno if u all felt tat way but to me..if felt more like family than anything else..n not seeing them for a day just makes me feel..weird =X honestly..I found the best bunch of frens in NP..I dun remember sharing so much of myself with other frens b4..thru the good n bad times..tears n joy n everything..really integral part of my life..

n here are the ppl tat I really need to thank

Samantha: goodness me..though ppl might tink we are different..we actually share so much in common!!! we have like same likes n dislikes..u know..the SPEECHCOMM thing..LOCVID shizz..haha..I really wouldn't have made it through the 3 years without u..I'm really thanking my lucky stars tat I said tat sentence to u during orientation..I would have missed out a lot if I didn't! thanks for ur help with all my work..I must say I really miss sitting at east coast mac with u doing projects lei..NOSTALGIA! I shall drag u there to sit with me soon..after all it's near ur house! =D n u're always there for me whenever I have problems..n yea I know I have many..haha..n I always feel so much better after talking to u..thanks for ur friendship n ur unbending faith in me though I was stupid several times n didn't listen to u.. >.< thanks for being u!!!!! (: omgomg lovelove..n yes we barely argued haha..deli potato ar remember..n btw Sam..pls make it a non-stick frying pan ok.. =PpP

Wanjune: wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..u're practically a sister to me lorh..I have nv spent so much time with a fren b4..sometimes I even see u for 48 hours straight..haha..like wad I said today..WANJUN U WOKE UP WITH ME BY UR SIDE..HAHAHAHA! u're a really great fren n I feel so comfortable being with u..tat's why I manage to come up with so much crap n unglam stuff..actually it goes both ways la..u also lidat..HEE..yea I knew u from year 1 too but I nv expected us to be such good frens..now I'm almost sitting at ur house everyday..even ur mom asked if we're lesbians! AIYO..n I can just be myself with u..I mean..we've seen each other during our worst times..we can talk abt anything under the sun..talk for hours without stopping..even go changing room together omg -_-" I'm glad we were thrown together in year 2 though I can't remember how it started..

Amruta: super sweet n understanding fren who is always there to lend a listening ear..especially during my emo emo times..thanks for being so patient with me..AHHHHHHH..it was great knowing u..Amruta's such a fantastic person..she will sit with me n listen to my most boring troubles n smile n try her best to help me..she's also always supportive of all of us.. =D n anyway I'm glad tat u found ur happiness n got rid of trash..same as me la hur..spring cleaning =PpP becos u really deserve it..I can't believe we did every single project tat we could do together together..haha..does my sentence make sense? I LOVE U GIRL!

Leeling: holy person! dunno how she manages to stay so cheerful until she reminds me of the msn smiley face..she's very nice to talk to..n yes her words are always worth believing although sometimes I really am stubborn..I will heed ur advice n Sam's as well in future..always trying to get me hooked on Korean dramas but too bad haha..FAIL..I dun like watching shows..Leeling is really funny..becos she is very....extremely..WOLS....she lags like hell n only laughs when the joke is over..like..5 mins ago..haha..she's going to kill me..thanks for intro-ing lingling to me Sam!

Mabel: wah tis bimbo! >.< kidding la..Mabs always makes fluffy comments which makes all of us laugh but really..tat's y we love her..but she's no airhead..her English ar..is like WOAH..half of her blog..is too cheem for me to understand..her sense of humour is really..phwoar..makes us roll with laughter..n she's a really great designer n her voice is so nice!!! deejay-ing is really in her blood..year 2 was so fun with u around! all of us were so sad tat we didn't see u much in year 3 but hey! I'm glad we still hang out together..mayyyyybel we love u!

Sarah: tis girl ought to be sainted..or at least have a halo floating around her head..she is like the epitome of PERFECTNESS! I've nv seen her do anything..tat I do -_-" ok I'm aware of how tat made me sound but how else do I describe it? I mean Sarah is always so perfect! a picture of calm..peace..n serenity..when u look at her ah..u will just feel so relaxed..her smile just makes ppl feel like a million bucks..n she's so so so so so sincere! next to her..I feel like a total sinner..eep..though we were only in the same class for year 1..but I know u're always concerned about all of us! so sweet! thanks for everything tat u did for me rahry! sending me to the doctors n everything..I STILL REMEMBER!

Lirong: FUNNY! her actions are very..worthy of emulating..u must see for urself..n she's really peace loving..I remember always telling her tat she n her bf Ernie remind me of pandas..she looks cheery all the time..she's always very patient with me despite the silly things I do..like drawing fish all over her books n insisting tat they look like her bf..even calling it an "Erniefysh" omg..how lame is tat..n I know she's always concerned abt me! haha..she gets indignant on my behalf when I get bullied..Lirong I love u! oooh..she sat on my right during orientation..I remember superrrrrrrrrrr clearly..the person on my left was..*cough cough..YAYYYYYYY happy I know u!

n there are others who have made poly life memorable as well..just tat we did not get to know one another tat well..but STILL..it's gonna be strange not seeing them..ppl like..Merlynn..Lanxi..Zixin..Yiling..Yihan..Arafat..Arman..Elizabeth..Vanessa..Guang Rong..Shazana..Nurul..Yuxin..Kee Chuan..Debbie...............................

all the best wherever u all go in life..

I will miss ALL of u..

Goodbye NP.

but yea as Sam said..tis isn't the end.. =D especially those ppl which I gave shoutouts to..u won't be spared by me so easily *grins..I'm going to drag u jokers out..

next Wed - Soup Spoon
next Fri - Sentosa (looks at Sam)
next Sunday HOPEFULLY (looks at Sam again) - Kbox

n Taiwan! Sam we're supposed to look for jobs together!

2007-02-15T02:45:00.000-08:00

wah so tired..yet I'm too lazy to crawl into bed.. >.< currently hooked on another song..I've played it on loop since 12.45

masina is driving me nuts..I can't wait for it to be over!

den it'll be another chapter of life...........oh nooooooooooooooooooooooo...........unless i fail masina..the possiblity is quite high lei actually..darn! must find job already! INTRO JOBS TO ME PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

ok I'll wail about tat again tmr..

MUCH NEEDED SLEEP

off to beddie bye!

oh ya..u ppl have seen my seal soft toy right? the one tat I used to carry around everywhere..if u all happen to see one in shops outside pls BOMB MY PHONE IMMEDIATELY! EMERGENCYYYYYYYYYY!

omg incoherent entry. rambling away. TOO TIRED! gonegonegone >.<"

2007-02-14T23:13:00.000-08:00

11:13 p.m.

oh I'm fine dun worry..after talking to Sam =D

it was just a post full of emotions..haha

but I'm not deleting it cos I meant it when I typed it yesterday..

but I'm over the anger la..

n I take back some of the stuff I said though..

I wouldn't wish hell on anyone (:

I'm off to study masina! late >.< omg

2007-02-14T04:25:00.000-08:00

4:23 a.m

now I've seen everything..

most guys..tsk..TERRIBLE..

wad did u tell me just last week? WAHHHHHHHH..HAHA! I'm glad I didn't fall for ur bullshit another time..holy shit.."I want that girl back so much" LOLOLOLOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL WADEVURRRRRRRR..glad tat I was so cynical n skeptical about everything..turns out..HEY I'M RIGHT!

I guess there's no such thing as being too careful..so ppl..pls open ur eyes n ur ears..becos there are BASTARDS out there who say wad they dun mean..

my god..n u were talking to her right IN FRONT OF ME -_-" I even saw it..I MUST HAVE BEEN BLIND. STUPID. RETARDED. becos I. ONLY. JUST. REALISED. IT. at THREE FREAKING A.M. I just made the connection..funny how some thinking makes u realise stuff..MY GOD. U GODDAMN LIAR. HYPOCRITE. OMG. WHY AM I SO MYOPIC. NAIVE. I SAW IT. OMG I SAW IT. N IT NEVER OCCURRED TO ME. FUCK U MAN. I TRUSTED U. I BELIEVED U. I GAVE U TOO MUCH CREDIT. FUCK U. FUCK EVERYTHING. FUCK UR DAMNED PRINCIPLES WHICH U DUN EVEN ABIDE BY. FUCK ALL THAT TALK. I EVEN HAPPILY PASSED THE FREAKING THING TO YOU. I SHOULD HAVE THROW THE BLOODY THING ON THE FLOOR. SHOULD HAVE CREATED A DAMNED SCENE. SHOULD HAVE FUCKING ASKED U WAD U WERE DOING. I SHOULD NEVER HAVE ENTERTAINED U. SO MANY SHOULD HAVES.

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WISH I NEVER MET U. WOULD HAVE SAVED MYSELF SO MUCH HEARTACHE. SHOULD NEVER HAVE. NEVER EVER NEVER EVER URGHHHHH..SAM U SHOULD HAVE HIT ME OVER THE HEAD WITH THE LARGEST FRYING PAN U CAN LAY UR HANDS ON@@! BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE. N I EVEN THOUGHT U WERE GONNA BE MY LAST. I SHUDDER AT THE THOUGHT NOW. ZZZZZZZZZ. FUCKING HELL. SHIT U LAR. I TAKE BACK EVERYYYYYYYY SINGLE NICE THING THAT I SAID ABOUT U TO OTHERS. LIAR. WHERE THE FUCK DID U LEAVE UR CONSCIENCE. BLOODY ROT IN HELL.

YOU. OWE. ME. A. GOD. DANG. SLAP. n much more. DAMNED DOG. FUCKING LIAR LEI!

u're prolly rocking ur life right now so I guess u won't care. continue la. go ahead la. do wadever the fuck u want since u always tink u're RIGHT but anyway. I hope u know whut u're doing.

ACTIONS REALLY SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. YOU. WORDS N ACTIONS DUN MATCH. FUCK THAT.

actually it's not my problem u can go to hell for all I care..tis entry is just because....I AM PISSED OFF WITH MYSELF.

pls dun comment on my use of vulgarities. I am really TRAUMATISED by my stupidity.

SHIT MAN. my bf is right. ALTHOUGH PPL ARE LYING TO U RIGHT THRU THEIR TEETH N U OBVIOUSLY KNOW IT. SOME IDIOTS LIKE ME FORCE THEMSELVES TO BELIEVE OTHERWISE.

FUCK. SAM U WERE RIGHT. OMG U HAD THE RIGHT IDEA ALL ALONG. NO WONDER. STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID ME. )#*$^)#*$)^*#$

WHY AM I SO FUCKING DUMB??????????? WHY DO PPL ALWAYS LIE TO ME?????

is it becos..I choose to believe the best in ppl?
is it becos..I trust implicitly?
is it becos..I'm just too naive for my own good it is easy to lie to me????????
or I just have JACKASS written on my forehead?

SO HOW? ENJOY HURTING ME? NICE NOT? FUN RIGHT?

FREAKINGGGGGGGGGGGG..HELL..

please ok..to ppl reading tis..DON'T LIE TO ME. n stop treating me like a fool.

becos I get EXTREMELY HURT

n also becos u know why?

someday..someone's gonna pay u back double

ok wadever. that was the last of the last. ENLIGHTENED.

I will not believe ppl so easily anymore.

I will not listen to bullshit.

I will shut myself in a box n live in my own imaginary world.

n so if u find that I take very long to open up to ppl n I dun really express myself..now u know why..cos I've been lied to once..twice..thrice..UMPTEEN TIMES.

DAMN SICK OF IT. I AM AFRAID.

I WILL NOT TRUST. NO TRUST = NO MORE HURT. SWEET.

I should have been born without knowing how to feel.

I shall be smarter. Lesson learnt. Dun trust guys becos they will say ANYTHING just to get u. Damn.

One day I will look back at this and laugh.

[edited]

2:18 a.m.

moving on to other matters..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY everyone! me love u all =D

actually..I believe tat if tat if u're nice to ur partner..everything is vday la..dun really need a day where u do special stuff..I mean..imagine if u treat ur other half like shit normally n just put in extra effort for vday..wad's the point!

=PpP bf I love u! =X I shy la!

oh exam today was groovy..I AM GOING TO PASS MEDLAW! woot..I happily threw my notes away after the paper..but MASINA..omg nightmare..how to remember all ar??

>.<>"Wi-Fi"

when pronounced the Wanjune way..becomes.."Wee-Fee"..everybody on the count of 3 now..

3..2..1..

*evil laughter

2007-02-11T22:40:00.000-08:00

just returned home from reunion dinner with my dad's side of the family..VEGETARIAN! which means tat our meal consisted of mostly different varieties of mushrooms.. -_- n seaweed n beancurd..n the servings were so small ok..it was like..everyone take ONE PIECE..n my relatives r so annoying..thank god CNY comes only once a year..

I feel strange..zzz..my head just feels so heavy..I feel..................like fainting..for the past few days..dunno wads wrong..

I broke TWO of my compacts today..so pissed with myself..damn butterfingers! now I gotta buy again..AIYO

n I had THREE TUBES of concealer..now I can only find ONE..they were still on my bed yesterday lei..SIGH..I must have thrown them away by mistake..TSK..I should start paying attention to my surroundings

suddenly heard stuff tat made me tink again....SIAN =(

2007-02-09T18:30:00.000-08:00

I'm more or less finished for MedLaw =D WHOO! oh I have pics of us studying..I'll post them later..

WJ n I were looking at baby photos..haha..oh n now I have super gross nails thanks to her..she wanted to paint my nails red..EEW! NO WAY! I like black lorh..so she reluctantly painted them black for me..but she put some $%&$%&$% FLOWERS on my nails..BY ALL THAT IS HOLY! so GIRLY lorh! FEL DOESN'T LIKE! >.< PINK..PURPLE..n WHITE FLOWERS..

MARY TAN WANJUNE! Imma MURDER U!

oh the vainpot is painting her nails now..haha..pink.."QUEEN'S COLOUR" she calls it..

classic quote of the day by her..

"who called me? here comes beauty. haha!"

lololololllllllllllllllll..n yes Mary..I HAVE TO embarrass u lidat =PpP payback for the nails..nutting in da world is free ya kno'

wakaka..

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2007-02-09T01:46:00.000-08:00

went to school to hand in Photojourn stuff today..thanks Jenny for helping me collect my stuff! saved me a trip to parts unknown..

supposed to meet Sam in school but the joker overslept! so decided to meet at PS straight instead..but Wayne talked n talked until I was late..he ordered pizza for the class which was really nice of him..but I just rushed off..wahhhhhhh actually I realised tat he's one teacher tat I'll miss!

so Sam ended up waiting AGES for me instead..so sorry! n guess wad..Einstein forgot to bring her wallet out for the 2nd day running! haha so kuku..n her hp battery was FLAT! wonder-fool =PpP I almost couldn't find her la..cos I missed a few words in her sms..she said "EXIT E" but I missed the alphabet la..so I tot EXIT..so many exits tsk..I almost freaked out when I couldn't find her..

went to eat noodle omelette..the stupid guy tried to flirt with me ok..SO GROSS..Einstein was laughing away at me..so malu..

but we spent a lot of time together today! haven't done smth lidat in a long long while..felt good la..omg must spend more time together ok sumi-san! =D love!

on the way back home I was damn damn dizzy la..Singaporeans are so inconsiderate! I looked as if I was going to die..yet no one offered to help ok..tsk..

super annoyed with my parents when I reached home..they touched my things AGAIN..I mean I really hate it when ppl touch my stuff..I'm allergic to dust..yet my mom has tis HORRIBLE HABIT of putting my things EVERYWHERE..including dusty tables..GRRRRRR..I suspect she's trying to murder me..now my skin feels so bad..DAMN..

emo..EMO..I'm in a emo mood..dunno y also..

2007-02-08T01:52:00.000-08:00

You're so beautiful.

You never fail to amaze me.

I was kinda scared at the start..but oh heck I thought I'd just give it a try and before I knew it..

I was gone.

I just couldn't help falling in love with you. Really.

I've never met anyone like you before.

You make my world come alive.

I hope you'll never leave.

2007-02-07T01:43:00.000-08:00

THE MYSTERY OF THE MISSING EARRING

it all began..when Mr Koh passed me a mysterious earring during the weekend n asked if it belonged to me..

the object in question..INSPECT IT FOR A CLOSER LOOK! if it's urs pls OWN UP!

I looked at it n said no..I mean I dun wear stuff lidat..n so I said I'd ask around..n if WJ n Emo said it didn't belong to them..HEH HEH..someone's gonna PAY FOR IT!!!! asdasdasdasd

n so I was stressing over it..

look! even the girl behind look kinda worried..HAHAHA..

deep in thought..

n of cos..I showed it to WJ..who denied tat it's hers..ORH HOR..ONE POSSIBILITY DOWN ALREADY! n she decides to play Sherlock as well..

murderous thoughts..STRESSED!

WJ stresses too as she glares at the offensive object..

finally..A BRAIN WAVE!!!! pardon the grammatical error in the pic it was photoshopped by ahem..HERS TRULY haha..

AHA! I came to the same realisation as her..WE KNOW WHO THE CULPRIT IS! lol completely retarded pic but OH WELL..NVM..

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*drumroll..

AMRUTA JOSHI PANDURANG!!!!!!!!!!!!

n of cos..all ends well..Mr Koh! ur ass is savedddddddddddd..

n we reward ourselves for our brain cells tat were killed in the tinking process..

GELARE! yummilicious..

HAPPY ONCE MORE!! (:

hahaha..pardon the lameness..we just couldn't resist..for WJ's version pls visit http://www.wanjun-yourstruly.blogspot.com lolz..

both of us met at 11+ at Tampines tis morning cos she wanted to visit Montip..didn't have wad she wanted but we both ending up spending anyway..I just bought a rubber band la!

den we went to Bugis! she wanted to go Sim Lim for her bluetooth..n on the way there we had to go past Bugis Street n as usual u know wad happened la hur..

we had to get smth similar..no idea why but it always happens tis way..n mine's always black n hers is always white..even our bags..

we couldn't do much today cos I had to go to sch!

n so I rushed down to sch..TO DO NTH BUT WARM THE SEAT ok..I sat there from 6.25 till 10..DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING..except make fun of the teacher..finally at 10 when everyone was done..I started cleaning up..cos I left the lights on last week so I kena cleanup duty =((((( damn it! n I was actually feeling quite sian..cos I tot of the longggggggg journey home..but I had a super nice surprise after class!

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD my bf drove down to find me! just to pass me a hp which he got for me..wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..n he fetched me home..wahhhh..very very happy..estatic! really touched..I mean..I dun need much la..it's not the phone or anything..I was just..damn happy to see him! HAHA..I was so stunned just now I didn't know how to react..delayed reaction..I cried in the shower hahahaha..HAPPY! thank god he picked me up if not I would have reached home at 1 am..YAYNESS..I have a fantastic bf!!!

LOVE!

oh n happy 3 months lynnie! sorry but I typed my post too slowly past 6th already! =D

2007-02-06T01:42:00.000-08:00

I was in a bad mood today..sorry if I offended anyone....

sometimes I wonder if I really tink too much..the walk home from the train station..alone with the cool breeze really makes me crazy..I imagine all kinds of stupid things..n I get all pissed off with myself..I worry whether my frens need me..I worry tat he'll leave me..I worry tat my pets will die..I worry tat my grandma is getting old..ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..n then I get all sad n everything..OMG MAD MAD MAD..I ~~WAS GONNA CRY~~ CRIED ON THE TRAIN LEI..SIAO

ok I conclude I'm crazy

AHHHHHHHHHHH..

I need a mudpie..like NOW..

2007-02-05T02:11:00.000-08:00

me: 975***36
me: whose number?
WJ: wait ar I see
WJ: doesn't seem familiar
WJ: but like see b4 lei..
WJ: guy or girl
me: I have no idea lei
WJ: seen tis number b4 lei..
WJ: can't remember
me: shucks
me: is it Lee Ling?
WJ: IT'S MABEL
WJ: HAHAHA
WJ: -_-
WJ: I tot I saw it b4 somewhere ok
WJ: how could u fel
WJ: tsk tsk

haha Mabs ur mysterious number left us wondering for a while.. =PpP I lost my phone la! obviously u haven't been spending time on my blog =( SO HURT! u owe me a mudpie on Tuesday HEE or imma pull ur eyelash implants out weet!

2007-02-02T04:40:00.000-08:00

my 2nd day without a phone =( it's super weird..I have become so uncontactable..I feel so cut off from the rest of the world! I have to call my frens from home n ask them to be SPECIFIC abt where they're meeting me..sob..so kuku ok..n I've used all my family's hps to sms already..dad..bro..grandma even darn!

was just looking at uni websites..I'm nv gonna be able to get in la..n why the courses so gross one..MATHS LEI..I can't even count to save my life..when I saw the word ADVANCED CALCULUS..I almost died..dydx all over again..VECTORS & MATRICES..omg r they KIDDING OR WHUT??????? %^&%)^&*%)^* dunno wad to apply for uni..DEAD MEAT

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today started out sucky but it got better..supposed to meet WJ in sch..but I overslept..by an hour n a half..haha..so we tot it was a better idea to meet in town instead..agreed to meet at 3.45 but she was late also =PpP cos she had to hand in smth for me so yeah WJ..u're excused tis time HEHE..

we went to NYDC for a mudpie first..COOKIE MONSTER MUDPIE! dope! =D the last time we went there they gave us the wrong one ok..so when we dug into our mudpie today..AISEHHHH..heavenly..I'm tinking abt it now la @@

den we went to Hereen! I bought a necklace..it's so pretty! looks super edible..dunno y everything I like is associated with candy..I have a super sweet tooth man..tsk..walked over to Cine after tt cos there wasn't anything much..or rather I was tahan-ing..there was tis pasar malam thing outside Cine selling the CUTEST handmade clay figurines ever..n as usual..I just couldn't keep my hands from buying stuff n yeah -_-" but it's so pretty! really..wait till I show u..n we saw nice caps! but I stopped myself >.< damn it..haha..oh n we didn't walk in Blossomz tis time round cos we knew tat it's gonna be ROUND 2 if we did la....DIE LA..tat shop is gonna be my downfall haha..

decided to go over to Far East cos Tan Wanjune wanted to look for lockets n a pair of gold shoes..in the end she fussed n fussed..also nv buy locket..we have super different tastes man..she is so super girly..while I'm.......................................................a mix in between..in other words..rojak.. -_- I got myself a charm for my bag! yay it's pretty..got one for B1 also..whaha..we ran around in Far East like small kids ok..omg I can't believe we did tat..HAHA..nvm..guess we missed out on childhood..n she got herself a pair of dunno how to describe shoes..after much deliberation..damn long winded ok she..I mean when I see smth I like..I will buy it..but she takes super super long..n 2 days later..she says she wants it..n we have to go back there again to look for it ok! SO AUNTIE..HAHA..but the shoes are nice! =D

JIYE came down to look for us..tsk tsk..SLACKER nv go school..do "project" for half an hour yea right..went to watch Adrift..I tot the show was fine albeit a lil slow moving..

I wanna watch romantic comedies! or comedy also can la..I like to laugh lei..haha

I need a mudpie..NOW..

Sumisan..sorry abt today! I was cranky..AFTER EXAMS KTV ok..I promise not to lose my voice till then =D

2007-02-02T03:13:00.000-08:00

i miss u so much ;

i miss u so bad :.

though I just met u like.........5 hours ago?

>.<

thankyouforbeingyou

I. Love. You. =D

2007-02-01T01:26:00.000-08:00

went shopping with Wanjune for CNY..omg town will nv be the same again..the way we layed siege on it..everyone was staring at our parcels..I had SIX bags..n everyone in Far East recognised us..when we went to other shops they were like.."oh yeah we saw u at blah blah blah.." damn it..day of infamy..two crazy shoppers..

I swear Blossomz is on a mission to make me bankrupt..I so so so love the shop so much! I bought 3 tops yesterday from there..a tube..n 2 spags! I bought a pink one n WJ bought a yellow one..n a dress..total damage..$105.90 -_-" I couldn't squeeze into the fitting room with all my bags..the boss laughed at me ok..haha..should be thankful ok..I give him so much business..

n den we walked past Mystiz..DARN IT! both of us bought the same thing again..just in diff colours..$29.90

bought a bag becos Fila bailed out on me a while ago.$49.90 we bought the same thing YET AGAIN in diff colours! kua kua..

got myself a pair of black wedges..$15.90..all the "orh za bor's (quote mama WJ) fault"..kena influenced..

both of us ate Beard Papa! SO NICE..first time I ate it >.< oops..

wah my post is really disorganised..my thoughts are everywhere..ok nvm..I SPENT A BOMB in total..about three hundred bucks..$#%&%^*%^ luckily CNY only comes once a year..

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last night I came to the realisation tat I've cried my last tear for u..after so many months spent together u couldn't even do one small thing for me..

god..I was really stupid

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I lost my hp! I'm so upset abt it.. =((((((((((( I like my phone lei omg..somemore my phone is in such GOOD CONDITION..first time I lost my phone! oh no oh no so sad la..all my contacts..GONE..if Robin Yee asks me for my interviewees contact numbers I'm so dead la..n my doctors' contacts..SHIT LA..if my skin acts up who am I supposed to call hur..sian damn bad mood tinking abt it..curse the idiot who took my phone into a thousand small pieces ok..I mean to u it's just a phone..but to me it's much more than tat la....I'm so dead already la..n I SAVED ALL MY IMPT DATES INSIDE MY PHONE..damn it! I feel super lost without it..n my exam notes..my addresses..omg la EVERYTHING..n my pictures! $%&$%& damn bloody assholeeeee!!!!!!!! sob..n I hate the idea of ppl reading my stuff..I mean even though it's nothing but I feel tat my privacy has been invaded..sigh..somemore I'm so sentimental I nv delete my messages one lei!!!! ...............................................................frig

DAMN.

n now it's so hard n inconvenient for ppl to reach me..as if I'm some hot shot..must call so many others in order to reach me..HAIZ..

n my grandma is kinda annoyed with me she refuses to buy me a phone..which I understand la cos if I were her I'd be pissed with myself too..shit..y am I so careless??

bah. sometimes I tink I'm really really stupid n I should just disappear from tis world.

2007-01-30T02:50:00.000-08:00

here's an article grabbed from thestar.com dated 26th Jan

The caller spoke in a soft voice, thick with an English accent. Brenda Johnstone of Hamilton thought it sounded familiar, though she couldn't quite place it.

"Can I speak to Rebecca Johnstone, please?" he asked.

Brenda didn't think it was a good idea. These are rough days for her daughter. The kind you pray you – and especially your children – will never see.

Her beautiful 19-year-old has cancer.

Three years ago, a mole on her collarbone that doctors kept telling her was nothing turned out to be melanoma. By the time the truth was discovered, it had spread.

Heartbreak doesn't begin to describe the resulting anguish to those who love her. Particularly since doctors have told the family that, without some kind of miracle, time is now being measured in days rather than weeks or months.

So when the call came last Wednesday morning, Brenda wasn't about to disturb her sleeping child – especially since it was the day after surgery to remove a cancerous tonsil that had made her girl even more uncomfortable.

No problem. The caller politely said he understood. He even offered to call back later at a better time. Then he dropped the bombshell.

"It's David Beckham," he said.

Long pause. "I just kind of went quiet for a second," Mom said. ``Then I said, 'You've got to be kidding me."'

It was no joke.

As it happened, Rebecca's aunt knew her niece is a huge Beckham fan. Has posters on her walls. Reads everything she can about him. Follows the English star's career. Loves the way he plays. Even shares a moniker. When she plays, her teammates strap an M onto the end of her nickname – Becca – and make her sound just like her soccer idol.

So, searching for something she could do to lift some spirits, Aunt Jenny had done a little digging on the Internet and found one of the star's representatives. Then made arrangements for a call, though she was never convinced it would actually happen.

Yet here he was on the phone. The same voice Mom had just heard on TV as news of him signing with the Los Angeles Galaxy leaked out.

By now she was excitedly almost running through the family's Hamilton home. Her husband, Tom, nearly fell off the couch as he caught wind of what was happening. A former semi-pro player himself, he couldn't believe the call wasn't a hoax and started grilling her with questions even as they walked into Rebecca's silent room.

Their daughter was asleep. Gently rousing her, she said she didn't want to talk to anyone. Her surgery-ravaged throat was raspy and sore and she was in no mood for socializing.
"`How about David Beckham?"' Mom asked. "Her eyes kind of popped."

And so she did. After three years of hell during which everything had seemed to go wrong and every attempt to make things better had only made things worse, the moment she put the phone to her ear, the dark clouds parted and a beacon of light flooded into her life.

In the most strained of voices, Becca and Becks talked about soccer. He asked how she was doing. Told her he'd heard she was a big fan. Even mentioned that he liked her nickname. He asked if there was anything he could do for her. When she said no, he asked if he could send her something. She didn't say no to that. Then he told her to get in touch if she needed anything.
Four minutes after saying hello, she wished him good luck this season and hung up.

But the story doesn't end with the dial tone. The buzz from the call gave the entire family a jolt of positive energy it hadn't had in months.

"The house was electrified for the whole day," Dad says.

Even now as he talks about it and repeatedly expresses his gratitude for Beckham's "touch of class" that brought his daughter such a lift, he lights up. Until reality bites again.

Rebecca isn't well enough to talk about the call now. Once a promising sweeper who made the elite Hamilton Sparta soccer club at 12 despite having never played the game before – and who was often the best player on her team after that – she's struggling.

She has almost no voice and has been suffering through a few horrendous weeks. But just when she needed it most, Beckham intervened again.

On Monday, a parcel arrived from Madrid, where Beckham plays. Inside was one of his authentic Real Madrid game jerseys.

On the back, next to the number, he'd written: "To Rebecca, With Love, David Beckham, 23."
Eventually it'll be framed and hung in her room. But not yet. She wants to be able to touch it still. To have a connection to the hero who made a difference in her life.

Dad's using it differently. As a motivation for her to continue fighting.

"I told her, 'You get better and we'll go see him in person so you can thank him."' She liked that idea.

so touching I couldn't hold back my waterworks..DAVID BECKHAM IS WONDERFUL..becks forever!! it's nice to know tat famous celebs can do such small things to brighten up someone's life..

I feel happy after reading such stuff! YAYNESS..

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spent 4 hours printing photos..when I finally saw the sunlight I was SO RELIEVED..so many hours spent in the darkroom makes u cranky..the initial part..around 1 hour..I WAS ALONE IN THE DARK ROOM OK..tat was SO UNFUNNY! I was damn damn frightened..n I almost died of shock when Jack n Yihan came in separately n said hello.. -_- omg tt's wad horror shows do to me..I was so glad when Mavis appeared to do her work I felt like hugging her..

I did 6 prints! yay..quite fast..hope Wayne okays it..

met Wanjune n Emo..we went to Holland V! thanks to some smartypants *coughs W..coughs J* we overshot n landed up somewhere along the road n we had to take a bus back lol..we had Katong Laksa..it was normal la..nothing fantastic..n we went to Ya Kun after tat..MY GOD we ate so much..I saw NYDC ok..I am going to eat a mudpie on Wed if not I will suffer from withdrawal symptoms..we warmed the seat for Ya Kun cos we were helping Emomo brainstorm for PR events for her ay-em-shee..she is a brainiac ok =PpP her presentation is on Wed n she couldn't remember her own tagline when we asked her..EMO pls buck up n stop doing the Bollywood wave pls!!! concentrate on ur work =PpP hehehe..

I'm so bored..all becos..

(2:24 AM) Wanjun: eh i go bathe
(2:24 AM) Wanjun: 10 mins

timecheck..it's now 2:45 n she is nowhere to be found! OH MY JUNE WHERE ARE EUUUUUUUUU!

haha gross..oh talking abt such typing..

(2:52 PM) Ah Beng: dunnO
(2:52 PM) me: act cutE typinG
(2:53 PM) Ah Beng: i gO BaThE LeRrRzz
(2:53 PM) me: chAo aH bEngz
(2:53 PM) Ah Beng: CyA LaTeR aT 4pM oKiezzZz?
(2:53 PM) me: okiEx
(2:53 PM) Ah Beng: DuNcH bEe LaTe HorXxxX
(2:53 PM) me: lolz
(2:54 PM) Ah Beng: OtHeRWiSe i WiLL bE saD dE lErxX
(2:54 PM) me: -_-"
(2:54 PM) me: faint
(2:54 PM) Ah Beng: hEhEhE
(2:54 PM) Ah Beng: OooOOoo

Conclusion: once an ah beng always an ah beng..dun try to act ok!

I can't wait for Wed! going shopping n I'm gonna stayover at the missing person's place! WOOT..

2007-01-29T11:50:00.000-08:00

I am in school blogging with Lirong's lappie! n Sam is sitting opposite me giving a free concert..SHE IS RAPPING NOW LOL!

went to some dog farms yesterday..omgomgomgomg so cuteeeee..I am SO IN LOVE okaye..I love Westies n Maltese n Jack Russels n Yorkies n Silkies! I LOVE EVERYTHING! I want a dog! I have decided..I AM GOING TO BUY A WESTIE OR A MALTESE =D n nobody is going to object..cos they are soooooooooooooo super duper cute! ohhhhh my goodness..I wish I had one to hug right now! =((((((((((((((((( I LOVE DOGS..

yay..finally I dunnit to listen to music with a faulty speaker thanks to.......JIYE AH BENG! whaha..whoo!

spent THREE HOURS working on my masina last night ok..BOO..WJ n I kept taking "pit stops" every hour to check each other's progress..thank me ok WJ! I motivated u to finish quickly =PpP so u should share ur thousand dollars with me hehe..

woke up late today -_-" I set my alarm to 7.15 but I let it ring till 8..I got a shock of my life ok..sorry Yiling..Lanxi..n Zixin! made u all wait..reached school at 10 to help them with their Advertising..I was their "model" for their print ad..WAH Zixin brought clothes for me to change..I changed in a male toilet ok EEEEEW! first time inside a guy's toilet! I was inside when I suddenly thought of GHOST TUNNEL ok..so I suddenly rushed out n begged Lanxi to accompany me ahha! wahhhhhhhhhh..she gave me LEGGINGS n a super SHORT mini skirt ok..couldn't even cover anything! but tt's wad the leggings are for la hur..but kinda weird..cos so not my type!!!! her shoes are pretty! den changed into another attire..sporty -_- lol..I was saying tt's SO NOT ME =PpP n they made me jump with the coke..I jumped n jumped ok! thank god it didn't take tat many tries..I would have died..Zixin was like..1! 2!! 3!!! JUMP!!!!! I was super out of breath la..luckily no one was there to see..HAHAHA UNGLAM..

ok I shall go print for Photojourn now..9 pix to print! wish me luck.......

WHEEEEE!

no monday blues today..AYE FEEL GUUD NEHHHXXXXX~~~~~~~~~~~~

lol.

2007-01-28T08:41:00.000-08:00

SO PISSED OFF. MY MOM IS A FUCKING BITCH. ZZZZZZZZZ.

so smart den u fix the fucking internet by urself la asshole..

I spent 45 freaking mins talking to the person from linksys who was really nice but whom I could barely understand becos of her Filipino accent..so irritated already n this stupid dog at home..%^*%^* just kept making noise in the background..

"JUST TELL THEM WE GOT A NEW LAPTOP LA"

...........................I hate it when someone is talking to me when I'm on the phone..like HELLO..I'm trying very hard to listen to the person on the line to HELP U so SHUTUP ALREADY..n duh of cos I had to explain the problem to her..wad does telling her abt the new laptop have to do with ANYTHING???????????????????????? I mean if she thought I wasn't helping den call herself la! crazy..

n she kept saying I'm not helping..

IF I WEREN'T TRYING TO HELP U THEN I CALL LINKSYS FOR FUCK?? TOO BORED I NEED TO CHAT WITH SOMEONE AR??????????????

n when I was trying to teach her how to use it..all she was concerned about was..

"why last time dunnit lidat lei? WHY DUN NEED LEHHHHHHHHHH?!?!?!?!"

fuck u la. u know better den u do it urself la. last time last time last time computers using pentium one la idiot

den gimme tat fucked up face n everything just cuz I said I security enabled the wireless..

"WHY LAST TIME NV LEI????????? U MEAN PPL HAVE BEEN USING OUR INTERNET AR???"

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK so angry..I just couldn't stop myself I shouted myself hoarse at her

n my dad also damn bastard. kept asking me how to use..den when I was telling him he tell me NO MOOD. dun wanna know den dun ask la. next time when ur comp crashes dun ask me how.

ok la next time when u ask me I will quote u..

"NO MOOD ALL FUCK OFF"

or I can try to be more creative..

"MY VISITING HOURS ARE OHHHHHVUR..SORRAYE"

pui.

2007-01-27T22:17:00.001-08:00

caught Ghost Tunnel last night..omggggggg..never again ok! Shalyn has guts of steel la tat girl..say not scary..I should have believed Sam instead! I almost cried in the theatre la! n half the time I was hiding n jumping n doing all sorts of weird things..the MUSIC was so EERIE..zzz..n then I CRIED outside the cinema..delayed reaction..I didn't dare to go home after tat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got woken up by my aunt tis morning..was feeling damn angsty..but I another B1 was entertaining me on msn so I feel much better than I was just now..haha..thanks lynnie!

walao..I've been awoken for 2 days already lei! slept at 5+ on Fri..mom woke me at 9..^&*#! today also same thing..slept at 5+ n aunt woke me at 10+ zzzzzzzz..TIRED! GRUMPY! n my aunt keeps touching my stuff! I dun understand why! it's MY ROOM! why do u care where I place my comics..n more irritating..she keeps nagging at me about religion..no not NAG..but FORCE..she keeps forcing me to pray..GO AWAY ALREADY! n she insulted my grandma..URGHHHHHH..my head is hurting..I HATE IT! y must she take a jibe at my grandma..I'M SO ANGRY! my grandma is so nice damn u! I dun like ppl like tat..DISAPPEAR PLS..mental note to self..she's here every sunday morning so I have to get out b4 she comes n drives me nuts every week..somemore tell me reunion dinner this date that date..so many reunion dinners for WHUT! there's no meaning at all lei..I mean..LOOK AT MY FAMILY..does having a nice meal salvage anything? NO..SO EAT FOR FFFFFFFFF?!?!?! I mean I really dun see the point la..if things are like that..eating together is just..doing something for the sake of doing it..

I'm dead depressed lei..y is my family so skrewed hur =( my mom is always nowhere to be found..always at someone else's house..she leaves me with no money no food no nothing..HAIZ..n my dad has to fetch her around..he can't even go do his work..I mean..he has to watch her when she's swimming at my godma's condo..WHUT??????? n she gets angry when my brother's tuition messes up her visits to my godma's place..HELLO..wad's more important? n are ur children HERE or THERE? u're nv here for us..SIANZ..was trying to talk to her last night..but she didn't even hear 1/10th of it..damn annoying..

home is a terrible place without love -_-" I WANT OUT!

2007-01-26T11:00:00.001-08:00

I was late for MASINA again..lesson was at 3..I left the house at 2.30..haha..! n I was telling WJ tat even if I could fly..there's no way I can make it there on time..so I arrived in school just nice when class ended..went to hand in hw..ate cup corn again..wah I love! took stupid pix with Emo's hijacked phone.. =D quality so much better..mine 1.3 megapix only ok waddefug! >.<

my fellow joker&I..

went to Hereen AGAIN..3rd day consecutively cos we wanted to take neoprints with Emo..

=D see my nice words..HAHA! "ur dad must be a terrorist cos u're the BOMB!" lololol.. =.= I'm entertaining myself sorry..

=PPPpppPPPPPPPPPPPp whee!

lol omg the stupid design makes it look like I'm royally blushing..nooooooooo!

-_- I asked them to look pouty! but in the end.........FAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

I LOVE U ALL!!!

omg I'm so so so gonna miss being in poly =((((((((((((( DUN LEAVE ME!!!!

went Bugis after tat =D had Barnsbury's Chicken Lagsane for dinner..tasted like pizza! but I tink it's nicer than Cafe Cartel's..

n finished off my day..with LAN gaming..haha..like..wad's new right..lollll

blogging n listening to music now..I tink I'm crazy! whenever I hear sweet songs I happy..n I get so touched I actually CRY..my gawd..I'm nuts! I love David Tao's 今天妳要嫁给我! AHHHHHHHH.............

2007-01-26T02:10:00.000-08:00

just keeping track of stuff tat I needa get cos I have a goldfish memory for certain things..

1. Jewellery box - my pile of accessories on the bed is growing at an exponential rate day by day
2. Bag - need a BIG ONE..cos my Fila bag decided to go on strike n the other one is starting to tear zzz..saw a nice one at Far East..$50!
3. Jeans - $149
4. Shoes - nice flats..cos my slippers keep giving way at most incovenient moments
5. Dresses - omgggggg I love! I'm so going to buy everything in Blossomz
6. Eyeliner - mine's not waterproof!
7. Eye makeup remover
8. Glitter powder from Red Earth - sharing with WJJJJJ $15 each
9. Bikini

n the rest..I've forgotten.. >.<

I tink it's time for me to change my hp number..AGAIN..haiz..received some fucking stupid sms from a loser..

"you blocked me in msn should tell me. nevermind I've blocked you too."

my god -_- how old r u? if someone blocks u obviously it means u r annoying..n u still dare to sms saying such stupid stuff..lol..block me ar? BETTER STILL lei..I mean wad's the point of telling me..am I supposed to feel anything? I mean..u're not even ANYTHING to me lorh..I need to give u explanation meh? SIAO..

"because..my msn thing saw you are online but you blocked me..can download the block detector one.."

tsk..tis program was out eons ago la..bloody lagger so stupid..such addons make ur computer CRASH ok..idiot..

TWENTY YEARS OLD ALREADY LEI STILL TALK IN TIS MANNER!

wadever la I've got better things to do with my time..

went towning with Samapi n Wanjune today after school..supposed to have Masina..but cos of the rain..all the buses were crowded..my gawd..spent ages waiting n waiting..in the end..LATE! so I decided to skip tutorial..which was assessed! 2% la..wad nonsense..even though I can't count very well I know 2% is an itsy bitsy number..Medlaw tutorial! did some wikipedia thing..quite fun la..Sabnani's lessons always so nice..he's so learned! there's always interesting stories from him..NICE NICE! Radio was..a bitch..cos the DAWS were so problematic we wasted a lot of time waiting around..June n I were starving so halfway thru recording we rushed to the canteen for some chicken rice..n I resisted the temptation of cup corn -_-

made our way down to Far East..wah we'll nv get sick of tat place..walked around the whole place looking for shoes..I bought a pair of flats $26.90..n a pair of heels..$23.90..I tink my shoes are almost settled la..

saw sooooooooo many nice tops..but had to stop myself from buying >.< cos we're all supposed to go shopping together next week....

went to the Taiwanese street snack stall for Chicken Mee Sua..yummy I love it (:

after tat we walked over to Hereen..saw so many nice stuff! we wanted to take neoprints..so we went to the toilet to doll up haha..drew eyeliner for Samapi despite her protests..den we went to take! SO FUN! happy happy..

NICE RIGHT! den we went to search for Sam's stuff..she wanted a waist belt..Hereen n Cine had no suitable ones..so we walked back to Far East! finally she found one which was nice! n she bought a dress! very good! yay..

went to Yoshinoya for dinner after tat..towned for 6+ hours in total! feet so tired..

*I'm changing my msn account n hp number..I'll let u guys know!

2007-01-25T02:30:00.000-08:00

today was a nice lazy day (:

went to school for Medlaw..for like..30-40 mins..n we were done..

Wanjune n I were ready to hit town by 11..but Emo started doing tat pitiful look with her gigantic eyes..hahaha..n we decided to be nice (as always lol) n accompanied her till 1 for her AY-AM-SHEE group to arrive..

we went to PS first..cos I wanted to eat the egg omelette noodle..had the chicken ham&cheese one..goodness me..it was suuuuuuuuuper fantastic! I was so happy eating it..haha..$4 only!

after tat we walked around..saw cute tees..those with funny quotes on it like "I got an A+ in shopping" hahaha..how true =PpP wanted to buy..the cut is really really nice..but $25.. =X a bit ex..boo..so we both TAHAN-ED..(n almost killed ourselves in the process) n walked outta the shop..hee..

on the way out of PS we decided to stick our noses into bodyshop for a while..BIG MISTAKE! we went a bit crazy in there sniffing all the body butter..n passionfruit smelled so good n it was on 40% off..since I always wanted to get it anyway..er........well..I got it..haha..$16..ok la hur..

went over to NYDC after tat for our long awaited MUDPIE! yes I know I'm not supposed to eat but the mind is willing flesh is weak..HAHA! so yummy! June n I shared the chocolatey one.. =D she said next time we'll get the apple one..YAY can't wait! can we have it tmr or smth..HAHA..

den we just sat there after tat cos we were TOO FULL..n yakked n yakked..decided to go take neoprints..so long since I've taken! I mean I've been saying for ages n ages tat I wanna take neoprints la..FINALLYYYYYYYYY!

whut is WJ doing!!!!!

lol..someone placed a bowl on her head before cutting =PpP

WHEE! we are SWEETY! bleah..

=X erm..would "WTF" be appropriate?

haha..fun girly stuff! still got more la..but dowan to make everyone throw up..hee..I design so nice ar..stick a flower on top of WJ's hair..wakaka..while she so kuku..gimme a tiara..HEH HEH..kena cheated la u..lol..SAM!!! I wanna take with u lei..LET'S ALLLLLLLLL GO..last day of sch rem ar..let's all go squeeze into a neoprint machine =D

went to Far East to clown a while for a while after tat..MY SLIPPER BROKE ok!!! so I was walking around with a slipper only on ONE FOOT! so MALU ok..haha..such things only happen to me eek >.< some witch doctor hates me! but it was funny la..I was laughing away..hurriedly bought a pair from Mondo..I didn't really like it la..more if WJ's kind..haha..looks like a top tat she has..cost me $21!!!! but I was desperate la..I'm so broke now!

let's end tis post with a classic statement of the day..

"eh..how come the Pepsi tastes so funny one............."

me: "(inserts short pause..or rather..u can call it a stun)...................ermmmmm..cos it's 7-Up"

lol. wad's tat word again? the 5 letter word describing an airhead tat ends with an 'O'?

oh..

*imbo..HAHA..! winks..

2007-01-24T00:34:00.000-08:00

sigh.

my happiness just faded away in 5 secs.

another emo moment?

I hope so.

or maybe I should just disappear.

let's just say I saw it coming.

but I chose to feign ignorance.

2007-01-23T03:12:00.000-08:00

tis post is taken from the world's biggest bitch.

http://justbree.spaces.live.com/blog/

January 22
Lovely Life :)
Everything's great finally!!!

Gave my baby girl (my car) a bath today and she's all sparkly and beautiful!!

Heard some bitch who screwed us over for projects get scolded by ziggy today and got chased out of the room (ok, dun wanna be mean, but some people are worse than dogs and deserve to rot in hell)

nobody screwed her for projects..she screwed herself up by not doing ANYTHING for EVERY module..n Amruta is such a sweet person n a fantastic fren..I mean tis semester they already didn't wanna work with u..but they decided to give u chance..n they even TOLD u abt it..n u agreed to do ur share of work..but YOU DIDN'T KEEP UR MOTHEREFFING WORD!!!! so if she's a bitch..WAD ARE U? worse than a dog? dogs are so cute come on..please dun insult all the dogs worldwide..u belong in the bowels of hell ok Brina..for ALLLLLLLLLLL the freaking LIES tat u have told us....ur IMC group..ur WISP group..ur PR group..ur ADVERTISING group..ur MASINA..ur MEDLAW..u lied to everyone wad..can't believe we actually helped u pass Year 2 just to get such crap from u..CONSCIENCELESS BITCH. make use of ppl n now just cos there's another bunch of bitches with u can start barking loudly again. n about the dun wanna be mean part..tat's the greatest joke I've ever heard. everybody knows u r MEAN by NATURE. in fact I tink u were BORN MEAN. we have NEVER heard u say ANYTHING nice about ANYONE. always "tis girl so ugly..wtf is tis person wearing she's so fat..or business students are so stupid..tis person's English so horrible shouldn't be allowed to speak"..ya la u're the best la hur? playboy bunny pinup girl.. (: the new HAWTNESS la u..everyone will use it for dart throwing practice..u're so nasty u shouldn't even be SEEN

Almost all my projects are cleared.

cleared just becos u brought ur mama down again or u would have been EXPELLED long ago. DUH. if u printed out all ur warning letters n debarment letters n bind it up u will get an cambridge worthy ENCYCLOPEDIA ok..even our Medlaw teacher..Sabnani called u a phantom cos u're bareeeeeee-ly around..y dun u just BUY urself a degree since u're so rich. I bet u haven't learnt anything in school at all.
Met up with ADIL!!!!

*claps..ur "best fren" tat u always told us abt..
hmmm... life is great when you have someone really sucky to hate.

Waiyi says she'll make sure they get what's coming to them. I can't wait!

wad..send ppl to bash us up???? or try snatch our bfs? some things u wanna give away free also nobody wants lei..I can't wait to see u try to do anything to us.

OH COME ON. ur frens will disappear the moment u're in trouble. u're just too stupid to see it.

Oh, well...

Violet, Waiyi, Pravin, Adil, Jason... my Darling Jimeis, PAm, Qi, Vam... Thanks for all the times and for knowing how to be a good friend.

yes. ur darling Jiemies again. famous story. when u were upset where were they? who were the ones comforting u? wow if knowing how to be a good fren to u means telling u wadever u wanna hear n amusing u when u need it..suit urself

Why should i be bothered about some bitches who dont deserve my time when i have so many other people who care?

the ENTIRE mass comm hates u..seriously EVERYONE..y do u fail to see tat u r a horrible person n u should change?

haha. pictures of my baby girl soon!! too busy to take pictures for her.

oh, and there are only 3 types of people who hate me:

people who have issues with themselves
people who have issues with the world
people who are jealous.

yes..so our entire cohort has issues ah..not YOU ah..I SEE..lol..u're seriously myopic..

JEALOUS? I must be seeing things. yeah those ppl who are in need of cellulite might be jealous of u. cos u have an excess of it. haha let's see..y would anyone be jealous of u? u have no looks..no character..lousy personality..u're a terrible friend..u're not even nice..there's nothing for anybody to like..

Guys are not blind, if u keep getting screwed over and cheated on by them.. it just means they see what a bitch you are :)

wow. u're referring to urself eh.

dont be a fucking dog and crawl back to them. have more dignity and pride, for the goodness sake!

lolololllllllllllllllllllllllllll..den u must have the least dignity n pride out of everyone in the world la huh..

Hahaha. okok, shall not waste my beautiful life talking about some useless sluts.
go and take my baby girl for a spin now! ta-ta!! :)

(: yessssssssss..beautiful life u have..I'm surprised u haven't named ur baby girl "Princess Ding-a-Ling" or some other stupid name..u're too fat to act cutesy..get a life u broad..we're sluts? who's the one who goes around wearing BLOUSES as DRESSES..n skirts tat dun even cover her ass..n tops tat have half her boobs hanging out..BUY A MIRROR LEI..or do they crack the moment u look into it? do u know our schoolmates actually place bets on wad colour ur underwear is or not? or when they place bets on soccer matches n lose they blame it on u for flashing n giving them bad luck? hahaha..

dunno y some ppl are just lidat..can't u just admit tat u're wrong? can't u see tat u're childish? maybe we just want u to be better? we just want u to do ur work? can't u accept criticism? y can't u use ur brain n tink..so wad if u have money..it's ur MOM'S..not urs..she's capable..NOT YOU.u really didn't do ur part of the project..so just BUCK UP!! simple as tat..just DO YOUR WORK n everyone will be HAPPY! it's tat EASY..but u choose to say we're bitches..etc etc..the whole world is against u..u're so poor thing..y is everyone so mean to poor lil Brina..honestly..u're pathetic..

sorry to come off really vicious here..but tis person is the MAD DOG OF MASS COMM N WHOLE OF NGEE ANN POLY..kena bitten by her will get rabies one..

*throws salt over shoulder..

2007-01-22T22:44:00.000-08:00

BAD MOOD. long time since I've been in such a foul mood. zzz.

I just need to rant.

1. my stomach has been seriously hurting for the entire day. so painful I felt like fainting in the bathroom
2. nausea.
3. I need to write 10 news articles for Radio tmr
4. T-Line test tmr when we only had..20 mins worth of lesson on it? joke.
5. I need to lug a 3.5 kg laptop to school tmr. N it's barely functioning. lags like hell n many keys can't be pressed. congrats.
6. I end at 10 pm tmr.
7. I'm freaking tired and hungry.
8. SOMEONE did NOT turn up for WISP AGAIN today. she only turned up for the presentation last week in order to ensure tat she gets marks. UNFAIR UNFAIR. n she's missed about FIVE lessons and ALL OUR MEETINGS.
9. Radio talkshow test tmr. 30 mins. best part. I haven't got an interview. I'm going to effing fail.
10. Lum XiangRong said "HURRY UP HURRY UP HURRY UP can I off the lights now?" to me in the darkroom at 10 sec intervals for 10 mins. successfully made everyone in the darkroom pissed off with him.
11. my bag SPOILED!!! bloody Fila. so lousy.

holy hell.

n to YOU:

ok so u tink u're great. u're fantastic. whutever ok. but u're in no position to PUT ME DOWN. n tell me stuff like I'm not worth it n I'm not loyal etc etc. I have no idea WADS ur problem n why the HECK u're so judgemental, opinionated, chauvinistic n so MISGUIDED tat u tink wadever u say is CORRECT. "tat's the way..it's lidat UNIVERSALLY.." right. so u r always right n everyone is always wrong. great. so tell me why do so many ppl dislike u? I've always defended u to other ppl but now I'm beginning to see WHY. if I weren't nice in the first place den WHY did u stay with me for 17 months? n just becos I said I dun wanna be with u right away u tell me I OWE U MONEY.

OH COME ON.

in tat case u owe me MUCH MUCH MORE. for all the times when I cried until all my energy was spent. for the occasions I spent travelling to n fro to ur house which takes TWO HOURS. practically almost EVERYDAY. WAITING HOURS for u when u can't even wait FIVE FREAKING MINUTES for me. sacrificing my sleep just to accompany u. reassure u constantly tat u were all I ever needed.

n u wanna count money? CAB FARE from ur place back home. $18+ per trip. almost FOUR times a week. cos I stayed so late just to spend 1-2 hours more with u.

$18 x 4 = $72 per week
$72 x 4 = $288 per month
$288 x 17 = $4896 for the time tat we were together

SO ARE YOU GOING TO PAY ME TAT AMOUNT? if not..SHUTUP. childish n ungentlemanly.

I willingly did all tat n barely even complained. BUT YOU DIDN'T APPRECIATE IT AT TAT TIME. SO WHO ARE YOU NOW TO TELL ME TAT I'M NOT WORTH ANYTHING. FUCK THAT.

who did ur homework for u while u went to game? ME
who cheered u up when u were down? ME
who takes notes for u? ME
who reminds u of ur schedule? ME
who sits there for ages n ages waiting for u? ME
who buys u stuff just to surprise u? ALSO ME
who tolerates ur foul temper? ME
who listens to everything u say? STUPID ME

I bought u slippers when I saw urs were spoiling..bought u a new gaming mouse cos urs was dying..ordered WC3 battlechest for u cos I saw how much u wanted it..gave u my spectacles cos u needed it..bought the more expensive camera n let u have the cheaper one cos u couldn't afford it..bought u the tie u wanted n went all the way back to school cos I saw how much u liked it..gave up ALL MY TIME..frens n family cos of YOU.

yet it was never enough.

n u DARE tell me I LET YOU DOWN.

YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING.

the times when my mom was screaming at me. I called u hoping just to hear a nice word but I get scolded by u instead. the times when I call u just to chat. but u're playing ur effing game. get shouted n growled at instead. the times when I WAS BUSY AT WORK N I REALLY COULDN'T KNOCK OFF EARLY. instead of being understanding u tell me tat nothing is more important than YOU even if it means failing attachment n I should just get my ass fired instead. the times when I was sooooooooo super tired. you got angry with me FOR FALLING ASLEEP.

in fact u get angry with me over EVERYTHING DAMNED THING.

so it's MY FAULT tat I just CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE?

so u dun have a conscience. YOU ARE GOD OK. I SUCK OK? NVM. get urself a gf who can do such stuff for u n tolerate all the HEARTACHE tat u put me through.

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*The Terminal is such a sweet n poignant show..I felt hot tears burning at the back of my eyes several times throughout the movie..super super nice n touching..

it tugged at my heartstrings..

2007-01-18T12:12:00.000-08:00

it's because I trust ppl so much tat's y I can't forgive them when they do me any wrong..

I dunno if it's good..

I dunno if it's bad..

maybe it's stupid to trust ppl so wholeheartedly..

sometimes I wish I wasn't like that..wish I were more cautious..wish I wasn't so stupidly trusting..zzz..ppl have told me b4..but I just can't help the way I am..I just like to see the goodness in ppl..but most of the time when I find out wad they're really like..it's just.....too late..

but I guess..if I really trust everyone 100% n they do me wrong..it's not my fault

so why do I feel like shit? haiz..seriously..ignorance is bliss

I hope no one proves me wrong..I dun wanna be hurt

I will just continue trusting..n hope tat ppl won't take advantage..

PLEASE..have a conscience..I treat everyone the way I want to be treated..I'm nice to others becos I hope ppl will be nice to me..so DON'T take advantage of me

UNDERSTAND THIS FACT..

maybe it's not a big deal to u..maybe it isn't really a big deal at all..but some things..just don't feel good..

put urself in my shoes..HOW WOULD U FEEL IF U WERE ME?????

I should just force myself not to feel

stupid stupid stupid..STUPID FEL

2007-01-17T11:19:00.000-08:00

wah..I haven't blogged for ages! been so busy with schoolwork..sleeping at 3+ 4 am everyday! so exhausting..

I shall blog abt wad I did at Wanjune's house during my sleepover on Fri n Sat..

the joker couldn't find her nice vcds! so we had limited choice..we watched..The Village..n it was around 1+..I kept nodding off..haha..she didn't seem to realise..dunno y I was just unable to keep my eyes open at tat time..after the show..we continued..or rather..I continued binging away..ate Chilli Crab noodles..DOPE! n a packet of Nata de Coco lychee flavoured..wahhhh so nice..n after tat I was awake..haha..we surfed friendster for a few hours..lol..using HER account..becos she is such a pink panther..she views people anonymously!!! =PpP cos she always views cute guys..so she is afraid tat they will find out..hahaha..n I'm not saying tat viewing anonymously isn't ok..I'm just personal attacking her..HEHE..

decided to go to sleep at around 5+..we lay down..n continued chatting n chatting until we zonked out..wahhhhhhhh..her bed is super comfy lei..the cushion..so nice to hug!!!! =D I woke at 11..n turned to see the pig still snoozing..haha..she only woke..when my hp rang..thanks to someone..who goes by the surname Koh =P

den we decided to see how I'd look like with permed hair..so she curled it for me..n though she insisted tat it's nice..I didn't like it lei! makes me look old!!!

we were so so so hungry..we decided to go to Hong Kong Cafe! we started getting ready at..1.30 but I tink we were only ready at around 4+..omg haha..

we went to the one at Marina..we ordered some noodles each..n we were soooooo tempted to buy the French Toast! it was calling our name la..goodness..but we ordered the Mango Ice with condensed milk instead..haha..damn stupid ok..cos I was telling her I wanted to eat it..n she reminded me of my diet..but I held the menu n waved it in front of her face..her next sentence..

"......................"
"..............................."
"ok fel ur diet starts tmr right.."

LOL!! the thing was ginormous la..everyone was staring at us..but it tasted so so so so so heavenly..but the weather was cold! when we were 1/2 thru it we started shivering..I couldn't feed myself properly with the spoon n she couldn't sms....haha..

WHOO!!

n of cos when both of us are around..there's bound to be retarded pics..

look at the poser!! lol..

damn it hahaha!

Sunday

met up with Wanjune again..I saw her for 7 days last week ok -_- omg can't believe it..I didn't get afflicted with her insanity.. =PpP

she accompanied me to take pics for Photojourn! thankyouthankyoumanymany..I was quite irritated tat day cos it was raining..but no choice..no other day to shoot pics already! poor us..standing in the rain with a stupid heavy camera..my hands were aching after tat..we walked around Ann Siang road n dunno where for about 2+ hours....she was so nice to accompany me la..I mean..doing nothing n just walking around in the rain somemore..after I was done..we were HUNGRY as usual..there was a 7-11 n she said she wanted to eat cup noodles..n of cos..I can't be left out either so both of us ate Chilli Crab noodles..again >.< n I had hot chocolate! by then it was just 5+..n WJ had an *ahem..cough cough..dinner with a "fren" at 7+..our INITIAL plan was to go to China Square Central to sit down..but we ended up spending more than an hour choosing sunglasses..I was fast ok..pink sunglasses! $10..so cheap la..but she ar..tried on pair after pair after pair..even got me to try them on so tat she could see..got a pair of grey ones..after paying..we went to the toilet to try..n she decided tat she didn't like it..so we went back to change..she spoilt a pair ok! so unglam tsk tsk..the lens popped out..haha..she eventually settled for a pinkish yellow pair a la Paris Hilton..

>.< I know I look ridiculous! shadduppppppp =D

Monday

I was LATE..so I decided to skip morning class n just go for the afternoon one..spent the afternoon developing my negatives..went to Bugis after tat..had Kim Chi soup which made my stomach )%*$ dunno y..I have a love hate relationship with such food..I just love spicy sweet n sour stuff but my stomach will feel super funny after tat..boohoo..went to play LAN..bleah..got a new wallet! finally..so happy..yay..thankkkks! (:

WJ could have gone to school together with me..but she had to meet her "fren" becos he left his brolly with her by mistake..HAHAHA..as I was saying..OH COME ON..wad an excuse to meet =PpP WHAAHHAHAHAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Tuesday

super effing long day..10 am to 10.45 pm..WJ waited for me just so we could take the train back together..

*)#*#^! Tuesdays man..

Wed

went to school for a 45 min lesson..wanted to skip it but..Medlaw..important! Sam n I were wearing the same colour! fun fun..green n black..the vainpot was wearing GREEN EYESHADOW ok! for her beloved "rubbertape"..QUOTE SHAZANA: "WHY RUBBERTAPE???? SOUNDS LIKE A CONDOM LA!" hahaha..oh well tat's Samantha for u..went for lunch with Jenny..Sammie..June..Sarah n Rong..at SIM canteen..omg I HATE tat place..it stinks..n it makes u stink as well..had Chicken Teriyaki Don..the stupid vendor was flirting with June lorh..she was saying tat her pants were a lil loose..n he was asking her if she needed some rope..ZZZZZZZ..so unfunny lorh..like HELLO..WHO'S TALKING TO YOU?? n Jenny is soooooooooooo boycrazy! I never knew..haha..she kept squealing tat tis guy n tat guy is cute..TSK TSK..scandalous..nobody agreed with her ok..haha..at least..some of us are sane..

went for a haircut after tat..I..Look..Like..A..Dawggggg..

2007-01-13T03:40:00.000-08:00

I'm blogging at WJ's house! dunno y so many ppl tink we're les! NOOOOOOO..we're just having nice CLEAN fun ok! boo..

I was super late for school today..dunno y I even bothered to go..lecture was at 3..I reached at......3.45? n they ended at 4..WAH..rain n rain n rain..I met an earthworm on the way to school..it was GIGANTIC..I almost cried..I hate worms @_@

went to Bedok 85 with a bunch of the nicest ppl ever =D Emo emo..Samapi Sabnani..Shazanna how to spell her name..n of cos..WJ -_- she lost her voice at O Bar! lol..seems like O Bar has some suspicious disease tat makes one lose their voice..so I've been having fun insulting her cos she can't scold me back *BEAMS..hehe..tat's divine retribution for u =PpP for laughing at me when I lost my voice..HEE..

wow..we ate hell lots..

- 2 big fat juicy slabs of sambal stingray..
- sambal kangkong
- satay
- hotplate tofu
- peanut soup
- ba chor mee

our meal cost about..$48? split between 5 ppl..less than $10 each! wow not bad considering the amount of food tat we ate la..the whole table was filled..sinful! we're planning to go somewhere again next week..hehe..introduce Emo to new few..first time she tried peanut soup today n she loved it..whee..

after tat we went back to Bedok interchange..n we decided..to let her try the Chwee Kueh! n so we ate again -_- omgomg..

we went to NTUC to pick up some groceries..

haha n so now I'm at her place..eating n eating..I had supper....like goodness we're eating again..her dad bought Fatty Weng bee hoon! so yummy..n I just ate Grape jam marshmellows..n another Chilli Crab cup noodles..n I'm halfway thru my packet of nata de coco..

my gawd..I'm growing fat..my new year resolution..NO MORE JUNK OK!! ppl pls help me!!! I'm on a quest..I'm putting on weight lei..CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT! NO MOREEEEEEEEEEE..dun give me mudpies anymore no matter how I beg ok! for like 2 weeks la =x I can't last tat long one haha..

wah when I was bathing halfway the water suddenly became icy cold..n it was raining! >.<

off to watch tv..ta! (: I feel like I’m bursting..

2007-01-11T09:10:00.001-08:00

hi bloggie! I'm backkkkkkk..

been too busy with work for the past few days to blog..n I can't really remember wad happened =x DIE..symptoms of aging.. @_@

it's Friday already! so good..whoo..n I tot I was just having Monday blues a while ago..

oh I had the lamest conversation with Tan Wanjun..now known as bag of bones..

wad I said abt her new polka dotted top..

"eh..looks like wad u wore yesterday.."

her kuku response..only blockheads like her make such errors HAHA..

"WHUT! I did not wear a top yesterday ok.."

n of cos..tat sent me into fits of uncontrollable laughter..I tink the everyone on the train was looking at me..

n here's the winner of all..cos she was grumbling abt her body aching cos she went for NAPFA..

n of cos I asked..how many situps did u do..why so pain..

-_____________________- get ready for the killer reply..

"............"
"..........."
"..........."

LOL..

"3.."

HAHAHA..I got nothing to say..

n being a very nice person =D I helped her to rub her *ahem..bony shoulders..

"wahhhhhhhh..so shiokkkkk lei..how u know where's the spot ar..tat's the right spot lorh..wahhhh..if harder a bit.."

n on it went..with "so shiok so shiok"..

lol..now we know..WJ..or bag of bones as we all now know her..is obscene..

tmr at her house =D yayness..haha cos with all her rubbish n nonsense stuff tat she comes up with..she's like..the closest to being a sister..HAHA..WJ dun bhb after seeing tis ok..

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I had a mudpie today..big apple mudpie..)!**%*! the thing is so addictive..I wonder if there's such a thing as obsessive mudpie syndrome..I tink abt it 75% of the time..LOL..

I spent like..$50 today..asdasdasdasfasfas..half of it..went to an umbrella..dayum! when I dun bring a brolly it pours..when I bring..it's hot..the weatherman hates me I swear..n so I had to buy a brolly..n I decided to invest in a pretty one..it's pink! pretty (: n I got hp accessories n a necklace..AHA..

today was funny..HEE..

shall update again after my weekend..Bedok 85 look out! =D

2007-01-08T02:26:00.000-08:00

I haven't updated in a few days! didn't have the time or the energy..

my weekend was good la..but it went by too fast! Double-O on Sat was fun! ahhhhhhhhhh so fun la WJ.. =D going to ur house n everything is always..girlie fun! mixing eye shadow colours n playing with glitter n everything..WAHHHHHHHHH..I wish I had a sister! wah we both wore tis top..same cut but in diff colours..I swear I won't wear anything lidat again..I felt so insecure lorh..though it's pretty la..but it felt like it was abt to drop anytime..tsk..no no no..n beer tastes godAWFUL..I'm so not touching it again..study break we're all gonna go ok..AMRUTA..SAM..LEE LING..MABS..NO ESCAPING ANYMORE OK!

n my Sunday was spent..walking in the sweltering heat at Chinatown taking pix for Photojourn..wah..my modules are SO SCREWED LORH! boo..thanks for going with me =D

went to Cine for dinner..Emo..Mabs..WJ n I ate from the same stall!! Korean food..yummy..kimchi is nice! we were trying to save money la..ate at food court..but den I spoiled it all by going to NYDC n finishing up an entire Cookie Monster dunno wad smth lidat la huh..mudpie..double chocolate..oreo cookie crust n everything..WHOOOOOOOOOOOO..$11.50 I could eat tat all day..in fact I hope I dream abt mudpie tonight..yums..

the upcoming week seems so busy..NAPFA !)*)*^ tis is nonsense..

can't wait for weekend..sleepover at WJ's house on Fri =D whooooooooooo!

I'm so tired..but I dunno y I nv like sleeping early..haha weird..

I miss you <3

2007-01-05T02:10:00.000-08:00

I want Donut Factory..I want marshmellows..I want Ben n Jerry's..Anderson's..Gelare..Fried Mars Bars..Beard Papa..I want I want I want!!!! so sinfullllllllllllllllllllll..walking around the basement of Raffles City is always a bad idea..PLACE OF SIN!!

went towning with Sam n June today..spent like a bomb..bought myself a dress..shades..belt..n erm -__- ha..everything cost about $84..

I dunno why but I just feel so........................down..

haiz..am I very hard to please?

2007-01-02T14:34:00.000-08:00

hmm..I realised all my frens have been blogging stuff tat happened in the past year..I tink I shall too! since I have nth to do anyway..but I dun really like tinking back abt stuff tat has happened..makes me feel so................emo..

stuff tat happened in 2006
- discovered the greatness of dota haha!
- joined a clan n made a great bunch of frens..everyday without fail all of us will be griping together online..almost like a family la!
- completed year 2 surprisingly..I tot I was going to fail everything..especially Media Management..wth equity n stuff lidat????? year 1 was the best la..but I met equally great ppl in year 2 =D luckily..
- drifted away from many frens.. -___-" thank god I tink I've rectified tat situation..nv gonna let tat happen again..
- internship at Biosensors..made me realise how much I hated calling strangers! n initially I was soooooooo shy I didn't speak to anyone else except those in my dept n I couldn't look at them in the eye la..I tink I'm mad..but I miss my sups so badly..they are the NICEST ADULTS I've ever met! my officer was strict la..but really..my dept was FREE FROM OFFICE POLITICS! can tell they really love each other..n they were so sweet to me..they didn't even scold me once though I made mistakes.. =D LOVE..omg I feel like crying..Tina..Jane..Chee Mun & Nic..thanks!
- quarrelled with 3 biggest fakes I've ever had the misfortune to come across..I swear a witch doctor hates me..hope I nv have to come across them in my life again..Melboobs..Sarah n Brina
- World Cup! I loveddddddddd World Cup..I cried when Brazil got knocked out la -_-
- crazy experiences with Jian Liang..biggest kid ever..nv seen a guy who keeps showing attitude to EVERYONE..kept throwing tantrums at me..dunno y I tolerated his nonsense though he meant nth to me..he tinks money can buy love..zz..insult to ppl all over the world..I mean he did really stupid stuff n expected everything to be ok just becos he said sorry..big deal..he still tinks he's the coolest thing ever..but whutever..explains y he's still single..(not by choice) since 15..
- came to the realisation tat I'm not willing to change the way I am..if u love me u'd accept me..flaws n all
- year 3..absolute bitch..I hate my modules..but it's gonna be over soon..n honesly I'm really scared for the future..
- lost
- did wad I always wanted to do..get bright red hair!

wishlist for 2007
- I will........be a better person! hahaha..tat's wad I always say but I dun tink it happens
- save money! yea right
- I will cherish ppl more! bro n grandparents!
- learn all the languages tat I always wanted to
- graduate well
- GET A NEW COMP

ok my brain suddenly just stopped working..

2007-01-02T13:13:00.000-08:00

I slept for 7 hours n still my eyes r just SO TIRED..I feel as if I haven't slept in weeks..I hate tis feeling! I did all sorts of things tat I could tink of..cucumber pads..eye wash..eye drops..cold compresses..but it's not really helping much..I need to stop bawling my eyes out already..PAINFUL..

n my stupid eczema is acting up again! the woman at the pharmacy refused to sell my cream to me cos she says there's lotsa steroids in it..not good for long term use..but tt's wad the doctor has been giving me ma!!!!! =( just tt I dowan to pay for consultation tis time round..$200++ for like..3 mins lei -_____-" which bank should I rob hur..

Wanjune called in the morning..YAY! accompanying her to town after class tmr cos she has some stuff to do..planning to go to my grandma's house after tat for a while..I miss her loads! I love my gramps!!!! (:

WHEE..

tmr's Wed already..short week!

2007-01-01T13:25:00.000-08:00

it's the first day of new year..n someone decided to pay me a visit..

CRAMPS.....zzzzzz @_@

I can't get to sleep..dunno how is tat possible after drinking so much alcohol..weird!!!

went to Double O last night..cover charge was so expensive!!!! $30 O_O after not touching alcohol for so long I happily drank myself under the table..3 tequila shots..1 tequila pop..n the one which did me in..I DRANK A BACARDI 151..wad a mistake..I was like..instantly high..whahahaaaaaaaa..now I can't even remember wad I did last night..DAYUMMM!!! I only recall shaking someone's hand when it was 12..haha..my bf said I annoyed some ppl by refusing to shake their hands n hiding behind him..LOL! wad was I doing????????

dunno wad happened after tat..just knew tat I couldn't walk properly..n everything was swimming b4 my eyes..tink I almost fell down the stairs..omg! n I threw up..OMG YUCKSSSSSSS..!!!!! sorry to the bf who had to look after me..WASTEDDDDDDD..heh..but I tink he enjoyed it actually -________- cos he was laughing away like some maniac..ya la I was totally unglam la..I WILL GET U DRUNK SOMEDAY OK! n I tink I was scolding vulgarities too..haha..couldn't control my mouth darn..sorry dear didn't mean it..I tink =PpP but he cussed at me too..cos he said tat's the only time he gets to do tat..WHAHA..

luckily no hangover..

HAPPY 2007! YAYYYYYYYYYY.. =D

2006-12-31T17:20:00.000-08:00

against my better judgement n common sense..I attended a family chalet yesterday..which promptly served as a great reminder as to why I've religiously avoided going to such family events for so long..

some of my relatives are really great..like..a few of my cousins are really fantastic..n some of my aunts are really nice ppl..kind hearted..harmless..but my 4th aunt is one hell of a bitch..

while I was chatting with my cousin..she unceremoniously dragged me aside to the 2nd floor n happily INFORMED me tat I was going to be her emcee for some freaking event..I mean..wad..do u tink I'm still the same small kid tat u can terrorise? HELLO..I'm 20..u can't order me around anymore..so I told her..NO..n she said "Mass Comm ma..should be easy..blah blah"..n I told her I didn't like public speaking..only to have her tell me I'm useless n I'm wasting my money studying in tat case..

whut the hell.

only on account tat she's my AUNT..I can't believe we're related did I not make her the receiving end of a tight slap..

honestly..not everyone is tat comfortable being so outspoken..but does tat make us less human? BULLSHIT..tat was such an inconsiderate comment..all the hurt n resentment n the hate I feel for her just bubbled to the surface..n I just stalked off only to have her attempt to try n hug me n say "eh not useless la"

LOL! so she realised I was freaking angry..but so wad -____- one hug n everything alright ar? crazy lei..yucks..should have used her damned brain b4 opening her trap..I hate ppl who shoot their mouth off..

my bf went to pick me up around 9+ to go somewhere else..n the WHOLE TROOP insisted on following me out to look.. ... ... circus ar? they really have NO RESPECT for anyone la..no respect for me or anything..it was against my wishes lorh..I was SO ANNOYED..

"y cannot see..we are ur relatives wad"
"wad's there to hide"
"any guy who doesn't wanna meet ur relatives isn't good.."

n so on with fucking stupid comments..my uncle even told me to take his IC..FOR FUCK??? n it's like..ALL EXTENDED FAMILY there lei..who will do such a thing la..bloody nutcases..

n my mom called tis morning trying to get me to go back there again for dinner..but I absolutely REFUSED..torture myself only with such awful company only..

2006-12-29T12:42:00.001-08:00

wanted to pw protect my blog but it's just too must of a hassle to have to login to my own blog -_- damn ridiculous la..sorry for those emails lovelies..so nvm..I change my blog ad instead! oh ya..dun link me can? plsssssssss..I dowan random ppl to read my blog @@ thanks!

2006-12-29T09:24:00.001-08:00

I have decided to do justice to all the places I've been getting free food..so I shall blog abt it..

1. The Whole Earth Vegetarian Restaurant

Summer Shitake! - $15
deeeee-li-cious Thai dish! succulent mushrooms garnished with red, green and yellow bell peppers cooked to perfection with Thai spices..CLOUD NINE

Sambal Ikan - $16

yummy Peranakan signature dish..the sambal paste is EXTREMELY fragrant..very rich in flavour..u won't even know it's vegetarian..WHOO

Broccoli with Monkey-head Mushroom - $18
bursting with flavours of nature..HAHA..sounds cheesy but yea..

the food here is very very nice! Peranakan..Thai..Chinese..fusion....ahhhh

2. Genesis Vegetarian Health Food

Olive Rice - $5.90
a combination of olives..olive leaf..n garlic served with soy n cashews..SUPERBBBBBBB..tis has a light buttery taste..deliciously refreshing..I WANT MORE!!

Claypot Rice - $5.90
fragrant dark soy sauce rice with mushrooms..the mock meat tastes just like the real thing!

Seaweed Roll - $5.90
tis is ADDICTIVE! splendid creation toasted with sesame seeds n served with cashew cream..very zesty..thanks to their peppermint leaf hidden somewhere..

Mexican "Chicken" Quesadialla - $6.90
PHWOAR!

3. Poison Ivy

Aloe Vera drink -$2
cool n refreshing! straight from their farm somemore..so exciting hee..

Organic Carrot Cake -$5
I know it sounds disgusting..but trust me..it's MUCH BETTER than those served at hawker centres..very aromatic..not oily too..!

Chicken Curry - $5
contains no coconut at all..not oily..huge chunks of chicken n large slabs of potato..nice nice! n u won't grow fat eating tis somemore..

Boxing Winglets - $5
very tasty! the chilli is super..tis farm has the hottest chilli padi in Singapore =D

Kueh Bingkar, Kueh Kosui n Banana Bread - $5
I swear..tis is HEAVEN..nicest tasting kuehs ever..NO KIDDING..the banana bread is godly..all homemade..

I also had 4 angled beans..fried lady's fingers..as well as banana curry..all for $5 each la..the banana curry is super unique..not spicy..but nice n creamy..succulent bananas! damn yummy can..but I dunno where I put the pix..n the restaurant ambience is COOL..really away from the hustle n bustle of city life..super relaxing..

4. Acacia Restaurant

Mushroom Soup - $7.50
homemade creamy wild mushroom soup with whipping cream..their freshly baked herb bread is DIVINE..n the soup is one of a kind..it really is chock-full of mushrooms..every scoop is bliss for mushroom lovers..SHALYN!!! n I'm not a fan of mushroom soup la..but tis is so good I almost cried..

Mango Salad - $7.50
a smorgasbord of fresh..crisp garden greens mixed with steamed fish..tangy n flavorful..NICE NICE! the fish is sweet n juicy..enhanced with mango n papaya..potpourri of delights!

Pasta with Seafood - $15.80
cooked with assorted seafood tossed with homemade spicy tomato sauce..generous amounts of juicy prawns n mussels..

Balsamico Chicken - $18
sorry but tis pic doesn't do tis dish justice..tis is the NICEST TASTING CHICKEN i've EVER HAD..boneless chicken marinated with fresh mixed herb's enhanced with aged balsamico garnished with julienne veggies..OMG OMG OMG..tis is to die for..it is sooooooooo exotic tasting..the chicken is juicy n succulent n dripping with delicious balsamic vinegar..YUMMYYYYYYY!

Tiramisu - $6.50
honestly..I would have gladly paid $65 for tis..wahhhhhhhh..after eating tis..I really can die happy la..Italian trifile covered with mountains of mascarpone cream laid on coffee-soaked finger sponge cake..with liquor n dusted with with chocolate shavings..WAH..the sponge cake MELTS IN UR MOUTH..n every mouthful oozes with bittersweet liquor..I was damn HIGH on tis la..HEAVENLY..

n best part is I GOT ALL TIS FOR FREE! WAHAHAHA..................I'm so full I'm bursting..I tink I put on 5 kg from all the eating..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-29T02:57:00.000-08:00

I am an emo kid @_@ I tink I really cry over everything..dunno y..very randomly..I suddenly thought of how much Ben loves Mel though they're no longer together..I just felt tat it was so sweet I started weeping -__- omg..cry over books..cry over movies..everything also cry cry cry..zzzzzz..can't seem to control lei..how????

n friendster makes it all worse..cos I just realised I miss so many ppl

from GPS: Cynthia, Tingyan, Keet Mun, Shawn, Amanda, Gina, Joanna, Eddie, Jason, Bryan

from SCGS: Pearlin, Priscilla, Esther, Kimberly, Melissa, Ker Chien, Pearline, Debbie, Jiaying, Leng Sim, Qihui, Eudora, Valerie Feng, Valerie Tock, Wai Shan, Kayan, Shun Wei, Shin Yee, Olivia, Nicole, Sarah, April

from MJ: Cheryl, Ashley, Siling, Eunice, Soon Heng, Siva, Firdaus, Faiz, Paulus, Zhi Mei, Christine, Grace, Charlotte

EEEEEEEEEEK..I wish I won't grow up at times..remain a small kid n wonder when my fav cartoon is coming up next =(

darn darn..must catch up with frens soon..but it's so hard cos most of them are halfway across the globe..BOO..

I love u all..thanks for being such wonderful ppl =D

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met Sam for dinner at Bedok 85 just now..we almost killed ourselves eating..between the two of us..we ordered Hokkien Mee $5, Sambal Stingray $15, n wad do u call tat? tangyuan in peanut soup..OMGGGGGGGGG..so nice lei the food..but we ordered the largest stingray there..n as a result..both of us were like..high on stingray or smth..haha..super nice! must go eat again..Sam I wanna eat OMU RICE let's go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n WJ the next time u bail out on us again u will have to finish a whole stingray by URSELF ok! =D by the time we finished eating..it was 9.15 Sam had a movie to catch with Lee Ling at TM at 9.20 haha n by tat time they still didn't have tickets yet..freaked out so we cabbed to TM..accompanied them both until they got their tix n I proceeded to plod home slowly..I was so full the 10 min walk took me half an hour..hahaha..

I have decided..I am going on A DIET..from now on..I'm not going to snack =x on unhealthy food..no chips (at least until I finish the last one in my cupboard hee) no chocs etc..so plssssssssss dear ones do me a favour..DUN TEMPT ME!!! I am growing FATTTTTTTTT! tub of larddddddddddddddd.. >.<

2006-12-28T17:16:00.000-08:00

younger brothers are a MENACE!!! he just came home n walked around the entire house with WET SOX..tis is a capital crime man..now the whole place smells like WET DOG..n we just cleaned the floor tis morning! my dad is going to have a fit @_@ n my bro is happily whistling away..his poor sis needs to clean up his mess !)&*&

the rainy weather is driving me insane! plsssssssss weatherman make it stop..it's just so troublesome to plough through puddles of water..*screams

oh just now on the train..I shall refrain from making racist comments..there were two AUNTIES..n SIX children..or should I say monkeys? from like..two to seven years old..they were annoying everyone on the train..sitting on the floor..screaming their lungs out (I wish)..eating currypuffs (CURRYPUFFS on the train)..basically making a public nuisance of themselves..n those two stupid women just sat there without even telling them to quiet down..in fact they played with the monkeys..poking them with umbrellas in the stomach n tapping them on the head -______- omg kidding or wad..(I wouldn't tap my kid on the head with a BROLLY) are they mad???????? ppl are just SO INCONSIDERATE..if u can't control ur herd/flock/zoo..pls do not take public transport..

n speaking of annoying..tis person just wins hands down..

taken from Wanjun's blog..

"Number 2.PR's major project is finally over but as a result, a friendship was lost. I think theres no point keeping everything like a secret now cuz thats the fact. Obviously I do feel upset abt it and theres nutting I can do at all. We now have one more chance to get better grades which we din previously and I think If we screw it, thats the end."

ya frenship lost..BRINA NG LI TING pls FUCK OFF..n I am not upset abt losing tis frenship becos u SUCK

do us all a favour..get the hell lost..u've not learnt from ur mistakes..for the whole year 2 u passed only becos of US..Amruta, Mabel, Wanjun n I..but u're STILL trying to take us for a ride..last time u were late or missed project meetings..these are the excuses tat u gave us..

1. "I'm going to buy a car"
2. "I'm in court"
3. "I'm at SIM..round the corner only..reaching" (n she appears an hour later) --> tis excuse used three to four times..come up with something more refreshing PLEASE..
4. (Two important presentations due next day..uncontatable for the ENTIRE previous day..we dialled until our phones almost burst from our anger) n she arrives late n our teacher is so angry he deducts 10% from us n she says "Oh my phone was on silent"..

n today..missing WISP meeting n not even bothering to notify us until we call.."I'm in hospital for food poisoning"..OH COME ON..we were already not expecting u to turn up..n yeah u proved us right..but tis time with another silly excuse..why r u such a COMPULSIVE LIAR..late say late..oversleep say oversleep..ZZZZZZZZ..better than coming up with such stuff..n honestly u know how stupid it sounds? just becos u're stupid doesn't mean everyone else is stupid..I mean..u expect us to believe tat???? if u're in frigging hospital den ask for an MC..u're in court den show us official documents..buying a car den oh well..go bang the wall..it's not tat we dowan to believe tat u're really ill..but u've really lied to us so many times ur words mean NOTHING..NO SHIZZ..HOLDS NO WATER..NADA..u are just..........persona non grata

n yeah..telling others tat u did A LOT for WISP..right bitch..I'm doing the powerpoint AGAIN tis time round..u only effing did it ONCE..like less than 20 slides..I'M DOING FOR THE THIRD TIME ALREADY..LIKE FIFTY SLIDES COS I DUN FREAKING TRUST U TO DELIVER ANYTHING..BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..the last time I stayed up all night doing YOUR PART OF THE ASSIGNMENT u didn't even apologise to me..n gave me some crap abt me not doing my work..HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..den those slides miraculously appeared yeah..

u have absolutely NO SHAME..n even less common sense..WAKE UP

just now when I heard u saying u will get ur BF to send us ur slides I just seethed with anger..firstly..we do NOT need ur bf as an extra group member for every single project..really..his tagging along pisses EVERYONE off..n the last time I called to chase u for work he said I was irritating n I was talking rubbish..LIKE HELLO..u tink I enjoy calling u is it? UR EFFING BF..IS A BASTARD..

not happy den come challenge the issue..the only damned reason I had to call was becos u are not responsible enough to pass me ur work without me asking n yaya I am talking rubbish..ur bastard cant understand me becos I dun use a FAKE SLANG like him ok..so dun act high n mighty with me bitch..Chinese plus Indian so does not give u Eurasian

Chinese + Indian gives u CHINDIAN

Eurasian means MIXED EUROPEAN N ASIAN DESCENT u DINGDONG!!!!!! ur bf is DEF NOT EURASIAN..n SO WHUTTTTTTTT if he is..u dunnit to do work ar..even Prince William needs to hand in work ok!!

n I remember when u told me u'll meet me online at 1 am to discuss work.I waited up till 3 am n NO SIGN OF U..no phone call even wadsoever..duhhhhh..sometimes I wish u'd just vanish..die..wadever..becos u bring out the worst in me..I've nv met anyone b4 who makes me lose my cool like u..BLOODY HELL

*SHE IS NOT MY FREN OK. BRINA IS NOTTTTTTTTTT MY FREN. PLSSSSSSSSSSS DON'T ASSOCIATE HER WITH US AGAIN. NO NO NO NO. WE DUN LIE TO EACH OTHER. FRENS DUN NEED TO LIE.

2006-12-27T11:02:00.000-08:00

HIGHLY IRRITATED..

I agree with Sam abt tis pet peeve..I absolutely HATE IT when everyone agrees to meet n in the end I gotta chase everyone for replies..if u agreed to meet on THURSDAY..n u can't make it..at least..let us know -____________-" I hate it when I schedule everything around so tat I can meet up n I have to ASK U only to find out tat smth has cropped up n u can't make it blah blah..I mean I dun blame u for not being to make it but I blame u for not leaving it hanging in the air..ZZZZZ..

1 more food review at Bishan on Friday at 4 pm Acacia Restaurant..hope I dun forget..

New Year shopping list
- Wallet (mine's falling to bits..)
- Jewellery box (all my stuff is on my bed..I sleep with everything lidat every night haha)
- Slippers
- Shades!
- Bikini

I wanted to buy so many things but suddenly my mind's a blank..darn!

sigh..2007 is coming..yet there's no festive air at all =( I feel so stressed lei..all the pessimistic air..I tink I can't take it anymore..CHEER UP PLS PPL..dun talk abt dying @@ it's not a way out..*waves pom poms around..I mean..do it for urself la..there's only so much I can do..can't just mope around right? life goes on ok..LOVE..

2006-12-26T08:37:00.001-08:00

Happy 1 Month darling! I love u.. (: it's been a whole month of absolute bliss whee..

other than tat..everything else has been crazy..where has the holidays gone? doesn't feel like one at all..Masina not done..no sources..WISP meeting on Thurs for whut I dunno cos I already finished the entire project the last time Brina disappeared on me..n now..PRINT JOURN AGAIN..I submitted my article yesterday n here it is back to me with fresh edits n my editor wants ANOTHER REVIEW by FRIDAY..wad the FUCK???????? u tink my interviews drop from the sky ar? dunnit to call n go down to the place ar..I got no other things to do other than work on the stoopid magazine ar??????? ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..n 1 more roll of film n 2 contact sheets to show Wayne..WHERE GOT TIME TO DEVELOPPPPPPPPP..n the rain..THE RAIN..too dark to take photos..HELP ME..n dun even talk abt radio..RADIO..omg

n I wish..I had a nicer family..who will actually take a genuine interest in wad I'm doing n listen when I'm talking..HA..

I'm stressed..really..I just want to drown in alcohol..seriously

NIGHTMARE..

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHH..

2006-12-25T12:08:00.000-08:00

went to a Thai restaurant at erm..dunno where for Xmas Eve dinner! LotusThai ar..I liked the food lei! super authentic..had Green Curry..my favourite (: Thai Otah in Coconut..Crispy Kang Kong..n Pineapple Fried Rice..I tink their food was delicious la..everything so shiok..their gravy also godlike..n I love Thai chilli! but my bf was a bit like =S haha..tink he can't stomach it..HEH..but..thanks dear =D

we went to watch a movie after tat..Curse of the Golden Flower..it was ok la..too much blood for me to endure..but Jay looked ugly..haha..Gong Li is hawt..hee..but old already la..

he got me a pretty pink bag n a lovely scent for xmas..YAY.. (:

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n I'm irritated on Xmas day already..no wonder ppl say guys are insensitive warts..

Bronco Coy Recruit Once... Snr Tech Regular Now.... says:
nv go out ah?

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
haha

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
yesterday lorh

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
today dunno lei

Bronco Coy Recruit Once... Snr Tech Regular Now.... says:
no1 ask u go out meh?

n tat was when I started getting annoyed..wth u dun even know me tat well la..u mean I cannot stay at home is it..zzzz..n still he continued..

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
i got bf wad

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
go out also must go out with him la xmas

Bronco Coy Recruit Once... Snr Tech Regular Now.... says:
but also gt other friends mah

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
i know ah

Bronco Coy Recruit Once... Snr Tech Regular Now.... says:
they nv ask u out meh?

`____<3 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] feL *.: xoxoxo``xoxo] //````` sugarnspiice :. says:
zzzzzzzzzzz

duh like I dunno I have other frens..as if u know I nv go out with them..dunno den SHUTUP LA! stupid comments..

n another retard..I hate it when ppl try to stuff their church services down my throat..I mean u can ask me to watch..but if I dun want to DUN FORCE CAN..

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
heyhey wanna watch my church de xmas production live

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
hahax

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
very funny de

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
faster go see

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
hahax

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
its really gd

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
go see lehx

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
hahax the service start quite long le

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
can see

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
the drama is about a tv talk show reporting the birth of Jesus

[StInGx]....---No matter how tuff life gets... Dun give up!! Press on!! =) says:
hahax

so irritating..SEE SEE SEE la wth..n wad was the link he gave me? http://www.cityharvest.tv/default.htm ZZZZZZZZZ..I hate pushy ppl..go away..even my close frens dun do tis..who are u to tell me such stuff..

*n recently I keep tinking if smth is wrong with our friendship..seriously..cos I feel tat I've been tolerating a lot..I just feel tat..u matter more to me than wad I mean to u..haiya dunno how to say..HOW? I feel quite lost..but den the happy moments come along n I forget all these problems for the time being n the feeling comes right back again..am I crazy????? =( maybe I should just disappear from ur life..

ARGH EMO EMO

2006-12-24T16:54:00.000-08:00

hey I'm back! had so many activities lately.. =D so fun!

Friday..went for my last food review at Neo Tiew Road..the other end of Singapore..LIM CHU KANGGG..luckily my dad fetched me there..the food was GOOD..n the boss was so nice..she ordered 7 dishes for me..at 10 am in the morning..haha..Egg with Otah..Fried Carrot Cake..Organic Banana Curry..Chicken Curry..4 Angle Beans with Tomato..Banana Bread..etc etc I can't really remember..but I know I ate until I almost fainted..

now I'm done with my reviews..I should start on my story..but so much inertia..heh..

went to meet WJ after tat n her fren Louis..went to Vivocity..dunno wad we did there also..so tired..I tink I ate again..Chicken Rice Stall..n ate..my third bowl of curry for the day..whaha..shiok lei..went to the new Pet Safari..EEEEEEEEK..SO CUUUUUUUUUTE the hamsters n guinea pigs n rabbits n dogs! all so sweet n fluffyyyyyyyyy..wanted to hug all of them..hee..

had a long chat with WJ near her place..haha..den went to meet my bf after tat..hor hor..cos he left school during break =PpP.. went to play LAN! until 3 am..n we got ourselves stranded in Bugis..haha so funny..

Sentosa on Saturday! we were supposed to meet at 1..but all of us were late..so we reached at..3..lol..the weather wasn't v good for tanning..but it was nice la..not too hot either..went to eat first..Sam n I shared Claypot Chicken Rice n Stingray! I wanna go Bedok 85!!!!!! Thursday ok......it's a date! whoo..

Sam had to leave early =( so sad let's go again okies..later on the rest of us went a little crazy n took hundreds of photos..HEE..it was fun just hanging around each other..went 7-11 after tat where all of us ate cup noodles n drank hot chocolate with the exception of Lee Ling who had to be different n drank Mango Freeze instead..

=D BFF!

wad's a trip to the beach without some lesbian loving wahaha..

whoo! I got to hug her yeaaaaaaa..haha..

n again..

n again..heh..

=D Lee Ling!

plotting to take over the world's shopping malls..

WJ is part of the mafia..I am so innocent..while Emo is just......BOLLYWOOD..HEE..

here's all of us!

Lee Ling took tis pic by mistake n she insists it's the best pic she's ever taken..so I have to put it somewhere..BLEAH..

the bf came down to Vivocity to fetch me after tat..hee so sweet right =PpP n we went to play LAN again..aha..n tis time round we didn't get stranded..got smarter eh dear..n we had two rounds of supper..my god..now u see y I'm growing fat..!!!!

got home around 5+ n woke at like..1+ ..supposed to do my homework but as u can see..I'm BLOGGING..n it's now 4 smth..aiyeeeeeeeee!

Merry Christmas with love everyone!! (:

2006-12-21T10:51:00.000-08:00

I seriously HATE my family..tat's why I always try n go out as much as I can so I can avoid them..I hate being at home..I feel so lousy now..it's the same thing every damned day..wake up hear scolding..blah blah blah..b4 going to sleep also hear screaming..I will go crazy one day..SHUT UP!!! I only go home when she's sleeping..ZZZZZZ..I dun understand how she can be my mom when we're so different..I mean..the moment someone raises their voice to me a little I just switch off..why can't YOU JUST TALK NICELY BE-YOTCH..but everytime she opens her mouth a bark just comes out.....so pissed..n asking her for money is like........asking her to kill herself..I mean there's no problem when my brother asks her..it's just ME..WHY WHY WHY..why the hell does she dislike me so much..den when I wanna move out make everyone happier she says no..BAH..

n my dad is also another character..first time I've seen a man who NAGS..n I mean nag incessantly..I can already memorise his dang speeches already..I will die without my mp3..ALL THE NOISE..

I HATE NOISE..GO AWAY..LEAVE ME ALONE..URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

sorry I hate airing my dirty linen in public..so embarrassing to have a stupid family..stupid problems all the time..but if I dun let it out I will be in a bad mood all day..

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omg n Emo's ex Apurva is such an idiot! they were together for SIX months n she calculated..the bugger only spent $29.80 on her!!!! wth cheapo..I hope his eyebrows are twitching now wherever he is..see I told u I'll blog abt it..haha so funny la..u were with a cheapskate for so long!!

#every relationship has its problems..hang in there ok pretty! I love u!! n pls CALL ME if u r feeling down..I told u many times already..dun coop urself at home n mope kk!

2006-12-21T01:41:00.000-08:00

sometimes I wonder..do I mean much to u? would u look for me if u don't hear from me for a while? I hope I'm just feeling moody n imagining too many things..

met up with Masina group at the National Library today..supposed to meet at 11..but somehow we nv reach there on time..anyway..ONE of them only woke up when the rest of us reached..so yeah..managed to find some books on Censorship in Singapore..n ASEAN countries..but nth on Taiwan!!! damn..I still have to go to other libraries to check it out..was quite worried abt my food review..so Emo agreed to come along with me! so nice of her..but I went with her to meet her IMC group first..at the cafe..n my stomach went all weak on me..so I ordered a chicken pie which was awesome..n hot milo..omg the milo there is the NICEST I've ever tasted..so nice n creamy with so much FOAM! (foam_ HAHA private joke) ahhhhh..orgasmic larh =X

took 32 to Clarke Quay..where we wandered around for a while..thank goodness for Emo or I would have ended somewhere on the other side of Singapore..asked around but many ppl dinno the place where we were headed..Lorong Telok! wahhhhh..we realised Clarke Quay by day is actually so pretty! so nice n quaint n the colours there are so chirpy..made me feel so happy.. =D Emo n I said tat we have to go there for lunch one day..just sit there n slack n enjoy the scenery..yay..went to Liang Court where tis woman at the information counter was so helpful..she gave me a map..haha..nice ppl just make my day =D thanks whoever u are..but den..being girls..Emo n I couldn't really read the map..actually it was more of ME la..but nvm HEE..

the lady of the shop was SO nice..she made 5 dishes for us..we ate until we almost fainted..

1. Claypot Rice
2. Olive Rice
3. Seaweed Rolls
4. Signature Dumplings
5. Chicken Quesadialla

n Lime with plum as well as Almond brown rice drink..all for FREE!!! wah sometimes being a reporter comes with many perks..but all the food here is Vegetarian la..BUT BUT BUT..it really is very nice! dun tink vegetarian food is disgusting..really..doing the food review seriously changed my perception..healthy dining lei..won't grow fat somemore..HEE..n the prices are so affordable..most expensive dish only $7! whoo..

somehow tis time round..my hols dun really feel like hols..I mean..it's already Thursday..n I dun tink I've really gone out to have fun or anything =(

went back to Bugis after tat to walk around..saw so many pretty thingssss..I wanna buy! Emo bought a gorgeous pair of earrings..MUST WEAR N LEMME SEE OK! I didn't buy anything la..which has to be a record of some sort..

met up with my bro after his lessons n Emo went home..thanks for accompanying me girlie!! supposed to have dinner together but he wasn't hungry..so we both went to play LAN instead..he actually brought clothes to change into..stayed there for 3 hours..actually I just wanted to make my brother happy la..I mean..tis was the FIRST TIME going out with him alone lei..I feel quite bad..took a train back after tat..n we went to the pasar malam..we bought food from there..funny how last time I used to be so fussy abt eating at coffeeshops n not going to pasar malams..but actually tis kinda food quite nice lei..n he wanted to take the long route home..n I agreed..haha..just to please the stupid boy..could have reached home in 10-15 mins..but he took me on a "tour" of Tampines..one big round..but it was great just to walk along an empty stretch of road n chat with him..I mean..it's nice knowing someone genuinely cares for u..I LOVE MY BROTHER MANY MANY!! (:

2006-12-20T00:25:00.000-08:00

wad's with the attitude???? do u tink I can't sense it? or do u tink I dun mind..maybe u're not in a very good mood..but do I look like a receptacle for bad mood? come on la..I didn't even offend u in anyway..I had a long day..but I dun do such things la..zzzzz..sometimes I wish I knew if I really mean anything to u..

n I dun really wanna use too many vulgarities but FUCKKKK YOU..go sign up for English lessons cos u're language is really too horrible to understand..darn u n darn everything u represent..if u tink money can freaking hell buy love then u're mistaken..u tried it once n it didn't work n u're trying it again..GET A GRIP..GROW UPPPPPPPPPP..n just becos u admitted ur mistake..I have to forgive u???? SINCE WHEN did such a law exist..idiot..n I meant every single word I said..u really spew nonsense..GRRRR

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got woken up by my dad again for dunno how many times in how many consecutive days..went to my grandma's place for lunch..the bus ride was an hour long..almost killed me..my lunch was great! cos she cooked my fave food =D my grandma is such a sweetie..she's been supporting me since Sec 1 la..wad would I do without her?

had to go to someplace in Geylang for a food review..though it was pouring away..she accompanied me there..so nice right! the restaurant was great! the manager was super nice..just tat I felt super pai seh cos all the staff was watching me eat..had 3 dishes in total..one Chinese one Thai n one Peranakan! (: NICE NICE!!

finished the review at around 3.30 had lotsa time to spare so I sat at a nearby coffeeshop to drink Milo..but I failed to remember tat I was in Geylang..my god..all the dirty old men..seem to nv have seen a female b4 -____-" yucks..

made my way down to town..I swear..Far East is a place of sin..I spent like..$80 in 10 mins..speed shopping for X'Mas gifts..HEHE..I love Christmas!!! so festive..everywhere's so pretty..so exciting..I nv want the holidays to end!

went to play LAN..joined Zen's new clan..look ASR who needs u anyway..tsk

came home..Jimmy just told me online tat HE was asking if he should wait at my void deck..OMG..I would have freaked out la..thank god..I didn't see anything..heh..

Masina meeting tmr! only good thing is I'll be seeing Amruta..hols always make me realise how much I miss them.. =( I feel quite lonely sometimes..no Samapi n her funny actions..no Wanjune n her yakking..no Emo n her many expressions..BOO!

2006-12-18T22:50:00.000-08:00

u know..I was nv really convinced tat Murphy's Law really existed..until today..which is the most ridiculous day of my life..I swear -_-"

in case u didn't know..Murphy's Law = Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong..how true..

firstly..I woke up at an ungodly hour of 6+ tis morning..n it's the FIRST day of the holidays! unbelievable..becos there was Radiojourn at Mediacorp..which is so freaking inaccessible..we were told to be there at 9.30 n for once..I was early..reached at 8.55 n waited n waited n waited for everyone to turn up..waited for the Mediacorp ppl to get ready..started at 10.30 zzzzzz..n so we ended late..which totally messed up my schedule for the day..

nvm..after tat I cabbed to Balestier with Shila, Valerie n Iann..we wanted to go Chinatown together to take photos but 130 came along n I decided to hop on..bad move..becos I have no sense of direction..so I just sat on the bus.....................until......I ended up somewhere in Shenton Way..which was kinda where I wanted to go..but "Palmer Road" was way beyond me..haha..so I walked around n asked for directions..

n den it started pouring.. -______________-" I swear there's a witch doctor who hates me..

finally I found the location where I wanted to start shooting..ppl were giving me weird looks..cos my theme is "Architecture"..they were wondering why was I so fascinated with the cracks in the doggone wall..took abt 6 shots..n the film decided to screw up on me..it started rewinding..BAH..when there were 30 shots left..so there..1 roll of film wasted..n tat was my last roll..SO..I had to embark on a journey to get 100 speed film..black n white..

which proved to be NO EASY TASK..International Plaza didn't sell..so I thought..ok fine..I'll go Peninsula Plaza..BUT..being the lost sheep tat I am..I alighted at the wrong place..Raffles Place instead of City Hall..so I wandered abt the place for a while b4 realising..WRONG!!! omg la..so I took the train once more to City Hall n trekked there..heavy bag n leaden camera n all..I just wanted to die..

went back to Tanjong Pagar..finished my shots..!! rushed back to school to develop..only to hear..NO SCHOOL TMR..ZZZZZZZZ..make me rush for nth..by then it was around 4+..so I thought..no class..can take my time to wash the negatives..went for dinner at Galileo with XiangRong..where he was surprisingly NICE..didn't do anything to irritate me..just tat he kept bursting into song randomly..went back to the dark room expecting to be able to print..but we were told..Jack (the guy who mans the place) wants to go home early..)$%& so I couldn't print..

the bombshell..WAYNE DECIDED TO HAVE CANCEL HIS CANCELLATION OF CLASS..*goes into hysterics..

so I'm not going for class tmr..

ah tis entry doesn't make sense..I'm stressed..STRESSED..

can you n you just FREAKING leave me alone..look at tis stupid convo..anyway my says is inverted becos I installed something to reverse my status msg on msn..

MàrúKô - says:
do u still hav any feelings for me`?

me ‮ says:
u treat me as wad huh

MàrúKô - says:
i nv mean anything`

me ‮ says:
HA

me ‮ says:
u tink i'm stupid is it

MàrúKô - says:
wat im to u`

MàrúKô - says:
o yeah`

me ‮ says:
u dun talk rubbish

MàrúKô - says:
nice one`

me ‮ says:
u ask urself

me ‮ says:
ur friendster appear some girl

MàrúKô - says:
pls la`

me ‮ says:
den now dun have den u come n ask me???

MàrúKô - says:
that one is my fault`

me ‮ says:
THEN

MàrúKô - says:
i not here to quarrel wif u de`

MàrúKô - says:
im seriously thinking being wif u`

MàrúKô - says:
but i dun think u will accept it`

MàrúKô - says:
a malaysian`

MàrúKô - says:
wtf`

MàrúKô - says:
also nv meet b4`

MàrúKô - says:
juz wanted to make u angry`

MàrúKô - says:
wei`

MàrúKô - says:
how i feel for u`

MàrúKô - says:
u shld noe de lei`

HAHAHAHA..FREAKING STUPID..just becos things dun work out with another girl den he comes looking for me AGAIN n I am supposed to fall for it ah..joke of the century la..I HATE GUYS WHO TREAT GIRLS AS TOYS..FUCKKKKKKKKKK OFFFFFFFF..I am not a plaything..I have feelings too..DAMN YOU..n anyway I love someone else whoopee haha..

now tat I have gotten tat outta my system..I shall block him too! whee..stupid ppl provide great entertainment..

ah..blogging is therapeutic..Sam I miss u! hope Thurs comes soon.. (:

2006-12-17T16:36:00.000-08:00

dunno wad's wrong with me..I suddenly feel so angsty..must be the rain..make me grumpy..

n my aunt is here..with freaking stupid comments..

A. cos my neighbours are playing mahjong.."u better close ur door..these type of ppl..u dunno wad kinda frens they bring to play mahjong..so they know u r alone at home they might blah blah blah..somemore the keys u put there..blah blah blah.." urghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

B. cos my bro's tuition teacher is here..so she asked me to keep the laundry.."y u hang it here la..later he need to use toilet la..put it somewhere else..later ppl see ur clothes they imagine funny things la -__________-" wad nonsense..n so I hung WET LAUNDRY in my room..wonderful..

C. my bro said he's going to help some church with X'Mas decorations.."u r Buddhist la..y during Vesak I dun see u helping..hur hur hurrrrrr..how can u do such things..CHRISTIAN LEI..y must u do charity for them.." how not to be in a bad mood after hearing such crap..charity is charity wad..siao

D. "u should have taken a course on Real Estate.." screw off la..hasn't she interfered enough in my life..y tell me wad i SHOULD do n wad i SHOULD not do..

n so much work to do..retarded..

Monday: go mediacorp..(how to go???), take photos, go back to school, print n develop wtf
Tuesday: go 593 Geylang Rd for food review..(yet again..how to go???) n I'm terrified of going any unknown place alone..zzzz I'm chicken..go back to school for lesson 6-10
Wed: Masina meeting at National Library in the morning..followed by food review at 1 Lorong Telok..(WHERE?!?!?!)
Thurs: kbox..saving grace..
Fri: no idea
Sat: Sentosa

stupid Print Journ la..I dunno how to tell Agnes to delay my deadline again larh..I hate calling ppl..n Karen already has her interviews for Radio..I need to call doctors..ZZZZZZZZ..

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u're so super nice to me! I dun tink I deserve it la..but u make me feel like a princess!! =D yayness..thanks dear..

No. 1 new year resolution: I'm NOT going to tell a single lie! of cos white lies can larh huh..

off to order Macs..I feel my mood improving already..

2006-12-16T03:14:00.000-08:00

my laptop is lagging very badly thanks to my brother..I am so annoyed..EIGHTY CRITICAL OBJECTS?!?!?! wad. the. fuck. n he spoilt my full-stop key as well..ZZZZZ..I just hate it when ppl dun take care of ur stuff..I know it's not his so he doesn't really care..but I let him use it cos my mom doesn't let him use the desktop..so why can't he just be more responsible..ARGH..on top of tat I've told him repeatedly to be nicer to my lappie..DAYUM LA..wad am I supposed to do???????? it's DYING ALREADY..I can hold a funeral for it already..it's practically screaming out in agony..URGHHHHHHHHH..as much as I love my brother..I just had to rant..sorry boy -_- I'll buy u a nice dinner for tis paragraph..

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n it really pains me to see my close frens upset..I mean..I really wish I could help.. =( I'm so sorry I can't solve ur problems for u..sigh..am I a bad fren? gah..

getting into a relationship is easy..but as usual..they're difficult to maintain..especially when u've been together for quite a while..maybe u've just gotten so used to each other..the spark's not there..but I guess both ppl have to work on it..there's no point when u're the only one trying to hang on..must get him to understand also..

here's just wad I tink..ME..just my opinion ok..

1. Know your needs and speak up for them clearly..a relationship is not a guessing game..if you dun state wad u expect..u end up feeling angry n disappointed with ur partner for not meeting ur needs..closeness cannot occur without honesty..ur partner is not a mind reader!

2. Remember why u both loved each other in the first place..sometimes when u're so frustrated with each other u forget each other's good points..

3. COMPROMISE..dun keep giving in!!! 2 different individuals..learn to respect n manage differences..disagreements dun cause relationships to fail..calling each other names does..dun talk when u're angry @_@ nth comes out the way u want it to..n ppl remember hurtful words..not nice ones..6 months down the road u will still remember smth nasty tat ur partner said to u b4..so THINK b4 speaking..

4. Solve problems as they arise..dun let resentments simmer..dun run away from it..it will snowball into big fat obese problems until u dunno where's the start n where's the end..dun go to sleep angry

5. Listen. With ur ears not ur mouth..dun jump to ur own defense so quickly..look at things from your partner's perspective as well as your own..

6. Work hard at maintaining closeness..closeness doesn't happen by itself..if not..ppl will just drift apart..relationships need regular attention..

7. Apologise..it doesn't kill..

8. Complete dependency on ur partner will drive them to insanity..

9. Dun compare..everyone is different..n a relationship is between TWO ppl..not more..

10. Love is....spontaneous n unconditional..

n of cos..TRUST

(:

2006-12-14T21:58:00.000-08:00

AHHH!!! I tink I am freaking OBSESSED!! AHHHHHHHHH....why why why!!! stop it now! I can't stop tinking abt u..omggggggggggg..*bangs wall

u know..sometimes I wonder if my mom has any feelings for me at all..I mean..wad sort of mom just sits there n continues watching tv when her daughter is shouting n crying away on the phone? I wish I had the guts to ask her tat..

Mom..do u love me? even a bit???

felt so worn out yesterday..many thanks to Wanjune who accompanied me around =D love..we hung around school for a while b4 going to town..where I spent ALL of my remaining money on a bikini n a pretty top..tsk..ate Mars Bars..SO NICE LEI..I'm so addicted to it..her toyboy Dudderly n his partner in crime Jason came to meet us after tat cos they were in town too..gross I tell u the way those 2 lovebirds were behaving..HAHAHA..I dinno where to hide my face =PpP n so unlucky..I was trying to hide from the newsroom ppl in school cos I haven't submitted my article..but I met them in Far East..EEEK..

Radio today was another nightmare..luckily my frens were so super sweet..I know they were all busy but they all came to meet me so I wouldn't have to be alone with HIM..he is so..zzz..*insert everything negative here..whut-ever la huh.. (: Sam helped my with my work..if not I prolly would have finished it super late..n they accompanied me to town!! so tat I could buy my shoes..$23.90 tat's it..I'm officially broke for December..n it's only the 14th =X oh lord..pls let it start raining ingots soon..I tink I need to diet soon..I ate Mars Bars AGAIN today! n cup corn..I have no control!! AIYEEEEEEE!!!

it's Friday tmr! whoopee!

2006-12-13T02:00:00.000-08:00

YAY!! no school tmr..but I'm going to Clementi to see the doc..n wjjjjj is going with me..whoo..so I am accompanying her to school in turn! wah we're so nice to each other..I meet her even more than she meets her bf..heh..

followed by SHOPPING..I was eyeballing a pair of shoes last week..but I didn't have the moolah! now I have it..must SPEND..HEH..going beaching next week..my bikini sux..must get new one..

ooh..Wayne is happy with my shots! whaha..he doesn't tink I'm a slacker..GOOD..another roll of film by next Tuesday..quite troublesome ar..but many thanks to the one who went on a sightseeing trip with me to Tanjong Pagar to do tis..THANKSSSSSSSSSSS BABY! (:

school is going to be over soon! still got Radio n Print to do..a lot of inertia lei..dunno how to get started..n I'm in super holiday mood already..

MOS on Sat was er.................zzzzz..it was fun la..with the frens part..but it was seriously too crowded..could barely breathe..barely move..n the musik in Smoove was erm..wtf? main was nice but we were packed tighter than sardines so there really wasn't any point la..but it was great fun teasing Sam n Lee Ling..HAHA..I was touching their legs to make them uncomfortable..drank 4 tequila shots..the most I ever drank..got high on the 3rd one..HEE..

some overdue pics..

June, Ling half hidden, Sam smiling like some superstar n me!

Emo emo n I

Lana Tan Wanjune n I..look at her "sao" face..

n some pics at kbox which I finally received..we look completely retarded..she's going to kill me but oh well..haha..I'll risk it..

HEE..Paul Twohill's sister..

aww..she's so happy

LOL

tis is LURVE y'all..

WHAHAHA..

2006-12-11T00:50:00.000-08:00

everyone has insecurities..I guess..I'm tinking abt some of them right now..n maybe I have a few questions to ask..but tat's all..I'll be fine (: I mean..I know sometimes I really look as if I dun care..but actually I do la huh..

just tat I dun really like pouring out my feelings..maybe only to certain ppl..like Sam n June..cos I take quite a while to open up to ppl..I mean as I always say..just a few good frens are enough..n yeah I tink I have the greatest bunch of frens one can ever get..but sometimes I kinda keep my thoughts to myself n sort them out in my head..until I feel like I'm bursting..but with all the loudmouths in MCM n those hypocrites we encounter in school everyday..sometimes it's better to keep quiet in case they use it against u..

actually I dun really care wad others tink abt me..just my close frens....even if I change my hair to orange..purple..pink..wadever I choose to wear..I'm still the same person inside..I dun need much to be happy..for those who like to judge..PLS DISAPPEAR..bah..I hate feeling emotional..luckily I'm not lidat most of the time..

LOVE!!

2006-12-10T14:27:00.000-08:00

I've had a few things on my mind lately..

1. the recurring nightmare AKA Print Journ..
=( I've got like 3 articles..or is it 4..first draft not even done..dunno why but I just don't have the motivation to start..it is just so sickening..

2. problems with some ppl in school
I just feel tat many ppl are taking advantage of me..zzz..I just hate the feeling..like I needed to use some of the rooms for Radio..I went to school like freaking early so tat I could use it..n so many ppl just came flooding in n asking if they could use for "5 mins 5 mins" which became a few hours..sigh..n it happens all the time =( n so I waited n waited.........gah

3. Eugene Lai
for being such a royal pain..whinger..blah blah..I hate it how everything is fine..n I even tell others he's OK..he loves me in his own weird way..everything is ok in school..no problems..but out of the blue.... every 2 days or smth lidat..he starts some crap..n says he wants to change project group..walao..damn childish can..makes me damn stressed..imagine how my groupmates FEEL.. =( n he makes screwed up comments saying my life is going downhill..etc etc..seriously..I hate self-righteous ppl..I tink my life is perfectly fine..I am HAPPY with it..wad right do u have to JUDGE ME??????? I mean ok la..if it bloody hell makes u happy..I lead a life of high crime..sin..n debauchery..OK??? den u're an archangel la..wadever la..den still like me for WHUT?? zzz..den suddenly he tells me I'm giving him mixed signals..omg dots..I tink a brain scan is needed soon..n the only signals he's receiving is from Mars lorh..n when I told him if he were a nicer person he'd have more frens.."I have frens now..Andrew blah blah Andrew etc etc"..everyday ANDREW..ok la big deal..so u got a new gurlfren called Andrew -_- congrats..am I supposed to applaud?

grumbles aside..Silver Wonders on Friday was GOOD (: Lee Ling u did a fantastic job!! the performers were great..sound was wonderful..everything was good la..we know it wasn't easy to coordinate such a big event..YAY..we love u <3

MOS yesterday was..............a bitch..ahha..it was fun la..dressing up at Wj's house is so fun lorh..girlie stuff..I LOVE!! but mos was so crowded..the queue was so long..thank god for Karen!! (: n it was so hot..the guys were as usual -_- complete bastards..I screamed at tis group of guys cos their fren fell on me twice..SO PAIN LEI!! n the music was a bit screwed up..but first time Sam n Lingling went! so exciting lei..I was touching their waist n legs on purpose..HAHA..they were screaming away.. =PpP die..I owe everyone money now T_T must go on ladies' night..if not so EX..

gotta go take pix for Photojourn now..TA! I love u girls! whee..hang out again!

2006-12-08T01:26:00.000-08:00

firstly I would like to say..

HAPPY 18th MONTH TO JUNJUN N DUDU!! May u all stay together blissfully n grow old together..HEE.. (: love to the both of u..

wah I seem to keep track of ppl's anniversaries pretty well..dunno y also..yet I can't remember simple things..like wad bus number to take home from the interchange everyday -_- lol some selective memory tat is..

tis week has been GREATTT!!! happy happy!! retail therapy is wonderful..spent $100 yesterday..on some prettilicious top from Blossom! (: has to be my favourite shop man..bought another pair of denim shorts..sorry la but I seem to be living in shorts nowadays..n erm..2 sets of ESSENTIALS..aha..there..I tink I phrased it very nicely..*winks.. =PpP

went towning with Wanjune today..ahhh I love tat girl..shopping together is SO FUN!! we took like 2 hours to walk Far East..stuck our noses into every shop!! Sam......pls dun go missing..it's ur turn already lorh!! LET'S GO!!! hee..but Wanjune was so....controlled..she just bought like less than $30 worth of stuff while I tink I just went a little crazy..spent $160+..OMG!! bought a bubble dress from Blossom again..$50..so ex la!! n some bracelets..earrings..rings..belt..all kinds of nonsense la..n of cos..a clubbing top =/ thanks June for waiting ages for me..I know I'm slow..haha..but all the tops were so gorgeous..spoilt for choice lei..eventually settled on one tat was easier to wear..the others all had laced up backs..NICE but troublesome la..den if someone pull how??? I can't even fix it properly..hee..

n my hair costs $190..wow..totally overspent tis month..n I still have my heart set on a pair of gold shoes..$23..quite ok hor..boo..I'm so broke now..but I'm happy so I guess it's worth it la huh..N PINK HAIR DOESN'T MAKE ME AN AH LIAN OK!! let me hear it n I will !$%&$*$#..........................................

Silver Wonders after school tmr..ALL THE BEST LEE LING..

SO EXCITING..weekend come soon!! I love December!!

*I miss u loads dear =X

2006-12-06T03:48:00.000-08:00

I feel sick..again..all thanks to Print Journ lect..which was conducted in a 17 degree classroom with me seated right under the vent..totally destroyed my nose..I can't feel my nose now..n I can't smell anything either..bah..

just some complaints about a certain editor..shan't say who but it's kinda obvious..for Print..tis is a convo between Wanjun n Syed..I just tot it was funny..

Syed on his opionion on her..
syeeeeed! says:
she can go suck cock
syeeeeed! says:
or suck seaweed
syeeeeed! says:
whatever rocks her boat

His stand..
syeeeeed! says:
no not blur
syeeeeed! says:
just fucking stupid

His justification..
syeeeeed! says:
really fucking stupid that if she went on survivor she would have been voted off while they were paddling to their islands for the first time

LOL..so u get the level of stupidity..yeah..we have to put up with it every week..poor us..

time to shop for new stuff! yay..shall go write up a list..makes me happy just by looking at it..HEE..update again in the morning..I tink it's bedtime =S

I can't wait for the weekend..

I feel crazy again..HOW?

pleeeeeeeeeasssssssssseeeeeeeee..just let everything work out (:

2006-12-04T05:56:00.000-08:00

YOU. BITCH.

as if u're the only one on tis planet tat wants to have fun. u happily go off with ur dog while others slog away doing ur share of work. darned irresponsible of u. if u even had the courtesy to call me I would have been FINE with it. but no. no call. whatsoever. n u leave the others wondering if u've done ur work..or I have to call u n rush u for it. wad am I ur nanny? stupid spoilt bitch. or u give lame reasons like u're sick when u look all dressed to go out..n funnier things like u're going to buy a car so u gotta leave early..YAH YAH..I NEED TO BUY A HELICOPTER LEI..can I leave early too???? zzzzzz..I tink all of us have covered ur ass one time too many n we're so sick of it. if u even treated US as ur frens u wouldn't do tis to us. tis semester has been a relevation. we see u for the hypocrite tat u r.

tis is another night sacrificed becos of ur bullshit. 6 bloody am n I'm still editing the slides. I just need to rant for a while.

me: "hello can u finish up the slides......"
bitch: "I did the slides the last time ask someone else to do..."

........wow. such cheek. the only thing she did the slides was becos she did NOTHING else. n now she tells me tis.

FRENS???? I dun tink so.

Friends till Forever (:

2006-12-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

tis is an entry for a beautiful person whom I'm so fortunate to know!!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA!!!

I will love u always =D!!!

thanks for being such a good friend..God's been so nice to me!! I got to know u!!! n I want u to know..I'm REALLY REALLY GRATEFUL for ur friendship..I've gotta thank my lucky stars for meeting u during orientation (lol MSN chat 11:21pm 30/11/06) u're wad got me thru these years of poly..NO KIDDING..

those hours of working on projects together at East Coast Macs..
those weekends towning together..
clowning around in those neoprint machines..
groaning over short T-shirts..
making complete fools of ourselves..
the fun n the laughter..
listening to all my problems..
always being there for me..

you're one of those special ppl..who lights up my life! thanks for understanding me so well..even better than myself..I guess u're the 1st friend who's so similar to me in many ways..no wonder we get along so well =PpP I guess I'm really MYSELF when I'm hanging out with u..I dun need to pretend to be someone I'm not..I dun need to worry whether u'll tink I'm at idiot..u're so much FUNNNNNNNNNNN!! I tink we even have comfortable silence..if u know wad I mean..

I know we've had disagreements b4..but I tink u know how much ur friendship means to me!! (: omg so lesbo..ilu Sam! <3

haha I know we looked retarded but I dun give a shit..n it's ur fault for not taking enough pictures with me =PpP n I keep using the same pics..see if u wanna take new ones with me not HUMPH lol

omg u got diao face!!

remember the times..hahaha

"You only meet your once in a lifetime friend... once in a lifetime." u're tat friend!!!! wheee..

2006-11-30T23:05:00.000-08:00

I nv knew liberation feels so good..but suddenly too much freedom seems to be driving me crazy..haha..it's like..wow..n tt's how I ended up going to the hairdresser n getting flaming red highlights which my parents HATE..cut + treatment + highlights = $160 worth of damage..quite ok la actually..I remember going to REDS b4..$300+ just for rebonding..daylight robbery la..

n yay! some hw is completed..can shake leg a bit during the weekend.. =D

y isn't my cough getting any better???? n it's been a week since I lost my voice =(

2006-11-28T00:08:00.000-08:00

oh noooooooooooooo!! suddenly there's so many things to do n so little time..

Ethical Dilemmas - 1500 word essay on animal rights due next Monday
WISP - presentation on WWII holocaust next Monday
Radiojourn - News bulletin on Thursday..my voice lidat..even a toad will be ashamed to produce such a croak.. =( who wants to listen?!?!
Printjourn - the bane of my existence as usual..2 articles due tis week..plus the stupid food review which is stressing me *$*!#
Photojourn - due TMR..I haven't even cut the stupid mounting board..n I have no spraymount..wonderful zzz
MASINA - consulation tis Thursday..WHERE GOT TIME TO RESEARCH?!?!?!?!?!

tt's it..I can go fly a kite already..